Comments | deepdownevil: 2 in the morning ranting!

deepdownevil

2 in the morning ranting!

Mar 14, 2005 01:39

I'm a bad influence. Affluence. Like influenza. A plague? Sort of like a disease. Can't be cured. Like the common cold. So very common. Everything's the same. Black and white are always opposites, always beside each other, always making grey. Colours always have odd names. But not as odd as some people. Though I've never heard of a person named " ( Read more... )

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xxmelxx March 14 2005, 10:02:12 UTC

I always felt guilty when I prayed... I'd think "Why would God waste time on my little problems when he could be helping someone else" then it would just make me depressed to think that I'm on my own in life and I have no one to help me but me. I think thats around the time I lost faith and stopped praying.. believing.
Prayers were always meant for a time to "talk to god" but if so many people are praying, how could he be listening to them all?
*hugs*
Very long rant, but I enjoyed reading it.
Love you,
Melissa.

jenn_007 March 14 2005, 11:05:08 UTC

Praying isn't like that. If you're only praying to get God to help you with something, it won't work. People pray to gain the courage to change things themselves.

And we all only have ourselves. We can lean on other people, and draw support and love from them, but when it all comes down to it, our lives are in our own hands. If we want to ruin it for ourselves, we will. We can't be on a self destructive path, think "wait! I changed my mind" and pray to God to make it all better, while you continue to do whatever you were doing in the first place.

Not to say you do that :P. Just some thoughts.

deepdownevil March 14 2005, 11:37:15 UTC

If you're praying to gain courage from some imaginary figure, why pray at all? All you're doing is duping yourself into thinking that your courage is coming from something other than you, so you become dependant on that thing for courage instead of realizing that it is in fact you, all along, who has been doing everything- you give yourself courage to do things, not "God".

We are alone completely and utterly alone.

xxmelxx March 14 2005, 19:41:54 UTC

Such a depressing thought though.
I'd like to believe that I have this one supreme being looking down on me, planing my life for me. But I can't. Because I realise, if "hes" so good and everything, why is he letting my life turn to shit? Why is he letting all this bad stuff happen to someone who doesn't deserve it? It makes me want to hate "him". But I can't hate something thats not there.
I don't even know what I believe in anymore. I think when everything ends, it just starts again, I could have lived many other lives, but I just don't remember them.. And I think I'm blabbering, so I'll stop.

-Melissa<3

anonymous March 15 2005, 05:23:25 UTC

God doesn't ruin your life. God is the one who created it and it's up to you to turn your life around and make it good for you. Don't blame God. I know how you feel. Sometimes you think that God did do this to your life because he has your life planned out....

philosophy striken_down March 22 2005, 14:53:22 UTC

It depends what you believe me personally i dont believe in god... There fore god didn't create me. Therefore I will not pray to him... There fore god can't ruin my life... But jesus was cool JESUS IS MY HOMEBOY! lol Andrew