i just found out some upsetting information. not to make me upset at anyone but myself.

i've decided that i'm just not going to actually care about anyone as more than a friend. i always get screwed or screw myself over. why can't people just go and have flings.... meaningless flings? well i guess i mean why can't I?!?!?!@#!$!

mom decided to let me on the computer tonight. the night before i'm going to leave to be gone for an entire week. tonight she let me hang out with my friends too!!! it was amazing.

don't get me wrong i was greatly happy!!! i enjoyed my time with my friends. i just wasn't in a great mood. i feel very unhappy as a person. my heart hurts. (and no not ( Read more... )

i snuck online again.

( this is for YOU boi!!! )

ok so i'm grounded from the computer now too!!!!

i'll sneak every minute i can though!!!!

call me human contact!!!!!!!!!! 490-8122

last night was pretty great.
the show was great.
the people were great.

during the show i just kind of stared at someone. rude but i just couldn't help myself. you're so cute when you play. and when you're truely happy!!

good thing i had a good night last night i think i'm grounded for a while. aaaaahhhh!!!!

today work was kind of fun. i like the people there now. they're soooo funny and off the hook g-unit.

my sister and i talked today. it was a nice talk. it's weird how we're SOOO different from eachother and still relate to eachother really well. my sister's really great.

i seriously don't feel wanted at all.

no one must want me seriously.

tonight work was alright until darren, his boyfriend larissa and her mom came in. then it was AWSOME@!$^#$^ i love you guys!!!!

hanging out with baldus, caleb, and benji was much fun tonight. i enjoyed playing ping pong and just having a fun night with no regrets.

david and chris and neil should've come over too.

tomorrow the show!!!! yaya!!!!!

last night was amazing. i am happy ( Read more... )

last night i spent over an hour just sitting by myself playing solitare downtown. i enjoyed it very much ( Read more... )