Not here, never here
I don't really use this account for anything anymore. Apologies to those few I've actually friended and talked to. Message me if you want more contact, and I send you my fandom account name. I've been writing Sherlock fanfic for the past year...and this is very much not the place to post it.
/cut to family stuff
I am disappointed with my family. Immediate family: siblings, mostly. I feel left out, out of step, and generally unable to connect with them in any meaningful way. I don't know if it's them or me or both. Probably both. We're all changing, all growing up and into ourselves (which I continue to find puzzling, we are ourselves, why must we learn what that is?) and shifts of relationships are part and parcel of this.
I'm just generally depressed right now. I have too much to do, and too little time for it all. Thankfully I have friends I can vent to and have fun with, but they're all online at the moment. No one is really close enough to can hang out with, eat with, talk in person with, y'know?
Well, at least I'm not hungry, yeah?