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Porgy and Bess
I had a concert last night. My school orchestra (we call it the Philharmonia) performed excerpts from Porgy and Bess. I've been enjoying playing the pieces, as they are quite different from the usual Classical fare, and extremely well suited to the story they portray. George Gershwin knew what he was doing when he wrote this, and did it well with ( Read more... ) -
Human Activities
History, to me, or even reading about a particular experience, elevates it into something mystical, crazy difficult, unrelatable and unachievable. This feeling is a lie ( Read more... ) -
Monthly Rant, beware
It seems most of my journal(s) purpose is to take the brunt of my frustration. Frustration at the world, myself, the other people in it, and stupidity in general. I am PMS-ing, I know this for a fact. I'm sore in odd places, and It makes me cranky in the mornings, exultant, teary, and sad later on. I don't think the Smirnoff I had earlier is ( Read more... ) -
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This has truly been a remarkable semester.
I've lived alone for the first time in my life.
I've lost my care for things. This one is hard to explain. Basically, my innate motivation, forward momentum? Has been stilled. Living alone has played a huge part in this, I believe.
Not only that, but I've been chin-deep in denial of my feelings about my ( Read more... ) -
Beware the research, it shall lead you astray
I don't remember my last post. It was probably two months ago or more. I've been shut down, in a way. Not acknowledging my feelings. Talking would have cracked that a bit. My teacher did that for me, right down the middle. A simple question: "Do you really want to be doing this?"
Simple enough answer: "No." Not like this, not anymore.
This entire ( Read more... ) -
What doesn't kill you...
It's amazing how much difference a full night of sleep changes your perspective. I've been on the edge for the past few days, but today was so much better. Also, getting through Music History and Theory tests with as much or more proficiency than I was granting myself earlier was a nice surprise.
I'm trying to organize my life now. Which internet ( Read more... ) -
New Home, New School
I've been in Ohio for four days. It's been interesting. School is going to be different, I can tell. There is a lot of emphasis on "being scholarly", and I'm not sure I approve, but I do not think I'll have too much trouble learning how to do that ( Read more... )