Ok. The clown costume is FINISHED. FInally. It's cute. I'll put up photos when i am in fully creepy -- err.....funny -- regalia.

Congress is friday. let'ssee how this is going to be. It'll be good if i get my van back before it starts.

wow, i'm tired. my grammer and writing skills are down the toilet. geez.

I just read the most amazing book. It's called "riding the bus with my sister"......amazing. It's one of those books where i started it at 8:30 this morning and couldn't put it down until i finished it at 2:30 this afternoon. It's about a mentally retarded woman who challenges her "normal" sister to ride the busses in her town once a month for a ( Read more... )

I. Feel. Like. Crap.

it's hot and i'm sick. nasty combination.

it's been an interesting weekend. I've been feeling really attacked from all sides lately. I've tried to do a couple of mind lifting things [like grilled out in my backyard yesterday-- yum!] but it hasn't really helped lift my spirits. I'm growing increasingly dissatisfied with the way things are here....i have no say whatsoever in what i do, ( Read more... )

why is it that it's okay for everyone to make fun of maine and say it's no mans land and "why would anyone want to live there" and "it's so undiversified" and other assorted nonsense insults, but i'm not allowed to say anything about their beloved jersey ( Read more... )

I don’t want to spend my life doing things that don’t matter. I am so sick of playing games. And I feel like a fraud. A silent fraud. I have been silent for over a year now. Not that I haven’t tried to speak. No one believes me when I speak. I try to tell them that life can be and is different, but they don’t listen. I try to tell them that we ( Read more... )

For the last 4 years, memorial day has been a day with some strangely sad connotations/memories for me. Yesterday, Tracy and I reclaimed the day ( Read more... )

i've gotten really bad about updating this on a regular basis, but i don't want to get out of the habit, because i've always been an avid journaler, and i don't want that trend to cease ( Read more... )

Oh BUDDY BUDDY ( Read more... )

ok, i'm going to be 25 in less than three months, and i've STILL never been on a date, never been kissed, never even had guy express remote interest in me.

Now i'm no size 6....but i'm pretty cute, for a fat girl.....and i'm fairly smart, and i don't stink.....so what the heck is wrong with me.........