Girl Things

[lavinialavender]

Title: Girl Things
Author: lavinialavender 
Disclaimer: If I owned SPN, there would be so much less pain and tears.  So much less.
Characters: Dee, Sam, John
Rating: PG
Word count: 641
Warnings: period talk, if that squicks you
Spoilers: none (preseries)
Summary: When she saw Dad had tears in his eyes, she knew she was going to die.
Author notes: Thanks as always to brosedshield  for

Comments

[brosedshield]

Yay! I'm so happy you have this posted! Now we just have to focus on new things *deep sigh*

And, I must comment on it, because I love that you unconsciously fulfilled my personal Deanna pillar #3:

But it couldn't be okay because Dad still wouldn't look her in the face. She sniffed, brushing her eyes quickly, and his grip tightened. At last, he raised his head, and when she saw his eyes were wet too she knew she was going to die.

Because she's a GIRL and this is Supernatural. Excellent, always excellent

[lavinialavender]

Thanks for commenting to me here. ♥

I really hope S6 doesn't leave me too distraught to finish fic, especially my Dee fics. *crosses fingers*

[brosedshield]

don't let it distract you! finish it TONIGHT ::mwahahahah::

[sanchan_8]

OK,

I just finished all Deanna fics from Brose D'Shield, and hoped that here would be some more, and.... here are!!! Yay to you!!!
So to this one... well I loved Johns reaction, because I think there are few more embarressing things for a single father then when their daughter comes to them with something like this...
I mean hey, horror!!!

Enough said about this topic...
I'll just read on now!

Bye
Sanchan

[lavinialavender]

Thank you! That is indeed horribly embarrassing. Glad you enjoyed it.

[littlebites111]

I've been working my way through these stories this weekend, and for starters I want to say "Haircut" was all the wonderful you said it would be. Well, wonderful in that, "Are you quite done stomping on my entrails?" way. I particularly enjoyed little Sam working over the hairdresser because Dee gave him a look. I am personally of the opinion that there is no such thing as too much adorable-Sam-ownage

[lavinialavender]

! ♥

Thanks so much for commenting here; you got me to re-read it, which I hadn't done in a while because of the squick but also because I was under the impression it was somehow inferior, because I wrote it fast and early, so I was pleasantly surprised that wasn't the case. :)

Yeah, I was glad to provide at least a briefly positive John. :) He did indeed man up for the talk (though I don't think he knew where to find pamphlets), though I can't imagine exactly what version of biology he told her. :P

Ooh, song lyrics! ...And a very depressing song that is! Aw. But I see the connection. I have this mental image of Dee carving off pieces of herself to lay them at John's feet. :(

[littlebites111]

Definitely nothing inferior here. You've taken something that had a strong potential for, as you say, squick, and instead made it about how ridiculously unfair the world is that Dee has to deal with this on top of everything else. I know John left boyDean a self-medicating hedonistic husk with a crappy job and nothing but Sam-Sam-Sam where a normal person would have an emotional range, but this makes me appreciate how *good* the boy had it, just by virtue of being a boy.

[lavinialavender]

a self-medicating hedonistic husk with a crappy job and nothing but Sam-Sam-Sam where a normal person would have an emotional range
*cracks up* I LOVE how you phrase things.

Yeaaaaaah, Dee's predicament as a young adult is sooooo much worse. I have a pretty good handle on what she goes through, in my head, through her teens and early adulthood, but I can only tread so far down the canon road. I hate how much more wrong the concept of her selling her soul for Sam feels; not that Dean's was a totally healthy choice, but, meh. Maybe it would feel better with a better-adjusted Dee, like I've seen in other's versions (paxlux writes a fabulous and sexy-as-hell girl!Dean, by the way, highly recommended). It's hard to contemplate how she undergoes the same disillusionment with John that canon-Dean undergoes, and where that leaves her in the end.

[saltyavocado4]

Oh golly, I just realized Brose is right -- Dee is female, this is SPN, hence she is going to diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie.

Humor aside though (dark and sorta hopeless humor but come on this is SPN), I am glad someone finally commented on how twitch inducingly uncomfortable it is to think of Dee sacrificing herself for Sam a la All Hell Breaks Loose. Things are so much harder for her than Dean because she is a girl, and just the thought of all that codependency with her little brother and deep, deep, deeeeeeeep buried insecurity just makes my stomach feel sour when I think of her making that crossroads deal.

Heck, not just that. How about the wammie the siren pulls on the Winchesters in Sex and Violence, the episode where there is a stripper bar and all the cases involve men attacking the women in their life? Or the torturing Dee would have to do in On the Head of a Pin? Suddenly a lot of things become less palatable once you substitute Dee in Dean's place.

[lavinialavender]

Sigh, yes. I admit I don't spend much time imagining how the big plots of the seasons play out with Dee instead of Dean. I focus more on her character evolution in preseries.

[lavinialavender]

Thanks so much! Yeah, it's a deeply uncomfortable episode for him (and just terrifying for her, and later mortifying).