Don't Call Me Daughter

[lavinialavender]

Title: Don't Call me Daughter
Characters: John, Dee, Sam
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 7,260
Spoilers: through 2x01
Summary: John could never clearly remember the following months, at what point he became unable to voice more than the first syllable of his daughter's name, or when he stopped trying to reach for the rest of it.
Author notes: Though I've

Comments

[sugarkid_dreams]

This was GLORIOUS. So glorious it needed caps lock. I loved the subtlety of the family life exposed in this fic, and I love how you wrote it.

[lavinialavender]

!!! Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I really worked hard on it, and sometimes it's hard to get love for a gen AU. :)

[brosedshield]

Very nice.

"I told him it was an experiment. He loves experiments." Has always been one of my favorites (I love the idea of little Sammy being told that it's just an experiment).

BUT I found another line that is utterly heartbreaking:

John had wanted so much for both of them, always. That's what this was all supposed to be about: killing the thing that had killed their mother, so his children could grow up in peace, their lives free of this.

They were already grown, though. And John knew better now of what they could expect, even after he was gone.

Poor broken man breaking even more. It's so interesting how John's sacrifice*coughstupidstupidlifechoicecough* here is SO much about how he has really failed Dean. It brings up the question, would he have died for SAM? Or would he have died with a little more self-righteousness and less self-loathing. Ah, the pillars of SPN rise again! :D

[lavinialavender]

So you finally read it! Thanks for all the compliments. :)

Hmmm, I think he would have died for Sam without any hesitation...but I don't know if it would have been the same attitude, yeah.

[etrix]

That was amazing. Even with Dean as Deanna, it still fits and, in fact, makes even more sense that Dean would be as fractured as he is.

Subtle changes, but significant impacts. Very cool. =]

[lavinialavender]

Thank you so much!!! I'm really glad it rang true to you. :)

[saltyavocado4]

Dee freaking breaks my heart in this and I don't know whether to punch John in the face or give him a hug and then punch him in the face. I love how Sammy became more aware of what was happening with his sister as he grew up and how he was angry on her behalf.

Damn, what I would give for one of you gorgeous sexy mofos to write a Dee and Sammy interaction fic, though. I would love to see how Dean and Sam's relationship would transfer to this verse. Would they still have fist fights? Would they still have prank wars and casual talks about hot chicks? Would that scene where Dee comes back from Hell and sees Sam for the first time while Sam's demon girlfriend awkwardly stands by as they hug it out be more or less shippy?

[lavinialavender]

Thank you so much for all these comments -- I have particularly mixed feelings about this fic.

I don't know whether to punch John in the face or give him a hug and then punch him in the face.
Ahahaha, excellent choices.

YES, poor Sammy growing up and realizing the sister he adores, worships -- doesn't like herself very much. :(

Oh, don't worry, I'm planning a bunch of stories where Sam and Dean interact more. I've been working a lot lately, on this FC hiatus, on one of the most intense stories I have planned in the Dee 'verse -- one that takes place when she's sixteen, that parallels a common trope in preseries Dean fics, and is about few options leading to bad decisions leading to worse consequences. It is...God, 12,000 words already, and I'm not done yet. :/

[jazzy2may]

Awesome story. Made me cry a little.

Beautiful.

- kind of wish there was a sequel - with Castiel. :D

[lavinialavender]

Thanks so much! I'm more preoccupied with the early days, before Cas shows up, but we'll see about someday. :)