I don't suppose the entryway to this night could get any dimmer... failed in Utopia for god knows why... but mostly.. I sort of come home with the pure intent of talking to Gary.. and talk to Gary I am.. to find out he has some lunch date tomorrow.. with some random boy... I hate times like this. Where you know you really shouldn't even care for so ( Read more... )

Oh my.... once again.. all too long ( Read more... )

Thanks to Onel's prodding (ironic as he hasn't updated his journal in months either...hint hint) and extreme boredom, I have decided to write in here once again ( Read more... )

I feel so lonely again ( Read more... )

I got a jury summons last Friday.. sent in the paperwork today.. strange.. being called for jury duty when Iam only 18. My mom didn't get summoned till she was 45, my dad over 50.... I feel kind of.. excited about it in a way.. although I doubt I'll actually be chosen as a juror. Neither the defence or the prosecution will likely want a young kid ( Read more... )

I was pondering this morning as I lay in bed recovering from my nightmare about a haunting spirit in my grandmother's house that I really feel like everyones hermit friend. I suppose it's only fitting since the tarot card to represent my birthday is the hermit after all. The hermit. I seem to never be allowed into social groups or clubs, but ( Read more... )

Why does man fear loneliness?? It is such a powerful emotion. Solitary confinement. Could it be that each of us is, naturally as a human being, so discontent with ourselves and who we have become that we must thrive off the new and different energies of those around us? Those that we inevitable see as better than ourselves, even if subconsciously? ( Read more... )

fuck ( Read more... )

Why is it that everytime I mean to write in this, it takes me several days to finally get around to it? It is beginning to get a bit annoying, as everytime I do this, it means I am stuck writing about an accumulation of things from a week ago.... here goes ( Read more... )

Mrrrrg... my ear is all fucked up again. It hasn't been the same since that time I got drunk in the mountains. On and off the annoying semi-deafness that comes like with an earache when liquid gathers up behind your ear keeps coming back. It came back this morning. ARgg ( Read more... )