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[defectivewhore]

What the fuck just happened to my last entry....?

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(Those who are even remotely fed up with my bitching, just don't read this

Comments

[moshingkittyash]

Olivia, babe, you know I really love you!!! I am ALWAYS here for you, you know it. Whenever you need me, Ill be here, no matter what. Always. You mean buttloads to me, and if you were to be swallowed by the earth, I do believe a good heimlich manuver(sp?) is in order. Or maby some buliema-provoking plant food, that might work. Hunny, dont forget that there are more people than just me that really do love you, and there will be more to come. You're still 15!! Thats a long ways to go (because Ill kick you ass if you do something stupid, and I KNOW you won't), and thats alot of people to meet, especially with your personality. No matter what you think, you are great. Love? Love.

[defectivewhore]

Thank you, sweetie. You've got no idea how much that ment to me. I meant, it so much, I'm in tears. I know I'm only 15, but it doesn't feel like it. It feels like my life is in a rut that I'll never get out of, and there is no use living. People just don't seem to care anymore, about anything, and it makes me just want to die.

If I do do something stupid, I'm sorry, Ashley.

I love you.

xo

[lonelybrokendol]

livvy. you are still my best friend. i'm not bored with you at all, you're still oodles of fun... and i would really love to spend time with you, but i only get like 1 day out of the whole week to really do anything. and that's friday. well, i guess i have saturdays and sundays too, but i don't really ever do anything then. anyway, i'm sorry that i chose nick over you for the weekend, i felt so shitty, i was bawling my eyes out because i made you feel bad. i hate myself for doing that to you. i'm so sorry sweetie. you have no idea how much you mean to me, i love you so much. i feel terrible, i really do. and if you just dissapeared, i'd be so sad... i'd miss you terribly. i only have one bradly, and that's you. no one could ever replace you, and no one could be my friend like you can. you're so funny and so great, i love talking to you and i love spending time with you. but i get really selfish when it comes to my time in vero. i'm SO SO SOSO OSOSOSOSO sorry. could you ever forgive me? please

[defectivewhore]

Babe, please don't cry over that, it's not worth it. I totally and completely understand. You want to spend time with the person you love most, and thats completely understandable and expected. I'm not mad at you, and I never would be over something like that. I love you with all my heart, and I never want you to think otherwise. Thank you for the compliments, even though they do feel like the most untrue things in the world right now. I'm sure it's just one of my mood swings. I love you, Courtney.

xoxo

[lonelybrokendol]

thank you so much for understnading. you're so great. and you are all thoe things that i said, and so much more. even if you don't believe it. when i see you, i'm going to give you a big hug... i might even cry because of the happiness. i love you so much olivial delturco!!

<333

[defectivewhore]

Your welcome, sweetie. No, you are great. And you just say those things because you want my ass. ;) I can't wait to see you in a few hours. <33333333

I love you more Courtney Fenwick!!!!!!!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

LOVE

[deathtomyself]

i love you, hun. i truly do. if i hadn't been all sick and dying this week i would have had you over. sometimes it just seems like you dont want people to do stuff with you or something. i dunno. im just a little bit shy on the inside. but we were like best friends when we were little kids and i feel like we still are. but when we are at skool sometimes, u dont even come to say hi or whatever so i dunno what ur thinking, but i know i want to hang out with you more...if you want. its really hard to explain this not in person so im just gonna stop. andi think i prolly got you upset or pissed at me and i didnt mean to. really. so yea. we can talk sometime. you can come over this weekend and next week after skool, too. this comment is really really overly long. so i will just go and catch some z's before skoolage tomorrow. when do u have break tomorrow? i have it from 12-1...maybe we can go to mcdoomys and get ice cream.
xoxxox

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[defectivewhore]

You doom ho, don't even think that I don't want to spend time with you. I'm so not mad at you, and I don't think I ever could be. I absolutely love you, you cheer me up so much, constantly. Even if your not saying anything, just the way you laugh, it's so great. Yeah, I still consider us extremely close friends and your welcome over to my house anytime, too. Never be shy to ask me to do something, I usually always do. And if I don't, it's because I have plans, or I'm depressed. I love you, Holly.

xox

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[deathtomyself]

yay! so what are you doing this weekend? i have no plans and we can do something any day. call me up or something and we can do stuff. im glad that i cheer you up, really i am. i love you too, olivia.
xoxxox

Re: LOVE

[defectivewhore]

Me, you, and Julia should do something tonight. Yes, I should call you & discuss this idea. Right now.

xoxoxoxox

[ices_empty_lies]

i love you alot liv! my porno elf sidekick.i've just been distant cause instead of being a charter homie im a flicker.grr...it sucks a nut.but i love you mucho.xxoxx <3333333333333333333.

[defectivewhore]

Thanks, baby. Your so great. I can't wait till you get ungrounded and come back to Charter.

xoxoxox<3333333333333333333

[ices_empty_lies]

yay! we'll have a porno party!! xxoxx <33.

[rantfactory]

Hey thats not childish at all to feel that way. I still feel that way and I am almost too busy to be worried about friends. I have like 3 really good friends who mean the world to me, and thats about it. Im sure they dont have perfect lives. People always thought I did, but good Lord I am an angry manic depressive, which most people would never guess. I hate when I am unhappy like that too, but it comes and goes thank God. Ah this is just me ranting. Sorry!!!!

[defectivewhore]

No problem, that helped alot. Thanks. <3