Wow.

[defenbaugh]

Been over a year since I last posted here.
Still got nothing to talk about.
Or rather, nothing anyone cares to hear.

This is how old people end up alone in a trailer and are found a year or more after they die isn't it?

Comments

[prickvixen]

Yep, I'm on the fast track to that myself.

[dustmeat]

I am rather curious how you are doing.

[savak]

Maybe..just MAAAAYBE you should wiki 'passive aggressive behavior.'

[defenbaugh]

Interesting read. It encompasses a lot more than I had realized.

[savak]

After nearly 20 years I feel we've known one another long enough that I can say these sorts of things. Of course, I say these things to anyone...so who's counting!

[defenbaugh]

Well digging around deeper I found something stemming down that Passive Aggressive tree that suits more. Ive known I have had emotional troubles with depression but the characteristics never fit entirely as it didn't account for the levels of rage and anger that would often occur as well, and then vanish as quickly. (Welbutrin XL handles these mood swings quite well as long as I dont become desensitized to it and have to increase dosage, which I have had to do, and am now within the last few days experiencing muscle tremors in the hand which may mean I have to stop taking it, whee!)

Borderline Personality Disorder seems more likely, and integrates aspects Passive Aggressiveness. Not sure there is anything that can be done about that other than therapy, which I have tried but it got prohibitively expensive. Though I know it may be mild or moderate, recognizing abnormal thought patterns and feelings is a major step in recovery. So I tip my hat to you. This bears more research.

[sebkha]

Considered Twitter? It's not a bad way to get a bit of social background radiation, without the writer's block that proper blogging tends to risk.

[defenbaugh]

Heh. While a good suggestion, I think an impulsive outlet is probably the worst thing for -me-. I tend to hold back a lot of what I used to blurt out and get punched in the face for.

[hakeber]

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