15 January 1980
I hate this. I'm quiet. I'm edgy. I'm paranoid. I'm fairly certain everyone, except for maybe Andrew, thinks I'm a complete and total mental case. I don't know how to just be normal anymore. Maybe I never was! I want to be friends with Teagan, but I'm not sure I remember how just to be friends with him. I hate the way I'm acting and I hate the way I feel but I don't know how to get better or change any of that! I have no idea why I even tried to ask if Heather wanted to be my friend. It was stupid. Stupid and ridiculous, but maybe that's all I am. I'm just a stupid, ridiculous girl who doesn't know how to control her feelings and even worse? I'm just a burden on everyone except for Daddy and Mu Kate.
I was a burden on my own mum. How is anything supposed to change?
I think I need to play some Quidditch.