27 April 1982
I can't even begin to talk about how embarrassed I still am over losing to Gryffindor. Not that Emmaleigh and Patrizio and the rest of the team aren't talented and not that they didn't deserve a win, but I. Missed. The. Snitch. I was too distracted by Ga other things.
That won't happen again. I hate to say it and I'd never admit it to Galen, but I think that's one reason I went ahead with sleeping with him over Easter hols. Worrying about that had me so distracted that I lost focus about things that really matter, like Quidditch. Now it's happened and we agreed we won't be doing that again until at least summer so I don't have to worry about that or feel like I'm a bad girlfriend for not sleeping with him.
It was really weird, I can't deny that. I hope Kate is right when she says it gets better. I'm really glad that she's around for me to talk to about these things.I could always owl Nori or Carrie, I guess, but that's still weird and I really wouldn't want to talk about that in an owl.
I've been practising ridiculously hard for this game. I let my team down the last time and I can't do that again. Besides, this could be my last chance to play Hogwarts Quidditch. I'm going to make it count, even if I have to do things I wouldn't normally do.
Back to practice.
Not long now.