dont waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head

[define_me45]

well in spite of a fantastic week at the beach everything has pretty much gone to hell.

..the relationship i was so sure of has gone to hell.  and he's not even here to talk to about what happened.  uggh.

..what started out as completely innocent flirting has turned into 'do i like him?  or am i just giving in to all the questioning?'  what the

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[slowd_11]

"im sick of trying to hard to stand out and blending in even more"

i SO know how you feel and agreee!!!

hope every thing turns for the better

[define_me45]

aww thanks sarah!
mee too!

[undiscovered07]

dang girl, may i quote seth and say "school ends but the drama doesnt".

thats too bad about the boy, but you know what? its his loss. if he didnt realize how good you were to try to make it work, then hes an ass and you wouldnt want him anyway.

about blending in, you should know that you really dont. if someone dared say you were ordinary, theyd be terribly wrong. you work harder than 98% of the people i know, and you always try to keep in good spirits. dont let those crappy people ruin you, you cant make them happy all the time, (the parents thing, eh. might have to care about what they think a bit more, but it sounds as if theyre being wayyy to hard on you). girl, youve just got to satisfy yourself, because at the end of the day, if youre not happy, then what is it worth?

im rambling, hope something i said at least made you feel a tiny bit better. ;-)
i frickin love ya girl.
call me sometime!

[define_me45]

aww girl that all totally made sense.

just so you know, i think you're just about the coolest girl ever.
:-)

i most certainly will call you sometime!

[bobalooo]

come visit me so you can have beach week part 2!

[define_me45]

VA BEACH HERE I COME!!!!

WOW

[lil_bennett15]

I completely and utterly understand what you mean about not being the same as Eric-same situation with my parents-except maybe not as worse..My parents understand that I'm not like Zach and I'm 100% more responsible and smart as him BUT they still I believe are afraid I'm going to be like him...HELLO my mom told me the other day to not expect to be able to go to Beach week when I'm a senior because of everything that goes on down there and the fact that zach got stuck down there (but he's back as of yesterday)...it's ridiculous. I hate how I'm younger than Zach-I wish it was the opposite just b/c he's ruining mine and Eli's future lives thanks to all the idiotic ridiculous stupid dumbass mistakes he makes...ugh-but yea girl-i completely understand what you mean

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[define_me45]

OMG! My parents told me the same thing about beach week!!!

WHATEVER. I am NOT missing beach week.
My brother didn't even get in trouble there this year.
Pshhh.

[shopgirl12]

"..what started out as completely innocent flirting has turned into 'do i like him? or am i just giving in to all the questioning?' what the hell am i doing? going there would totally hurt one of my closest friends. i can't do that. can i?"

if you're talking about who i think you're talking about (and if you're not, nevermind)....i had no idea you were possibly feeling this way. Don't let my OLD (keyword OLD) feelings stand in the way of you being happy. (Are you talking about the guy that i talked to online that night at the beach-not the one where i TYPED LIKE THIS but the other one..?)
Anyway...im way too excited about my maryland boy to worry about the losers we have here at home. So do what you want...(you better still hang out with me if this works out!) :-)

[define_me45]

boy do i have some stuff to tell YOU.