Thoughts.

[definecrazy]

Sometimes I think of going to the bank and taking out my life savings and then driving far away and changing my name to something crazy and being a totally different person than who I am right now, because I don't like who I am right now. I don't think I even know WHO I am anymore. The person I always thought I was wouldn't do the things I've been

Comments

[cassiopeia_sky]

I think in order for you to find something you have to lose it first.

BUt I think that what you're doing (aside from drowning in liquor) is completely appropriate. I think that everyone goes through that point where they have no idea where there life is going. You'll be fine, you've just got to wait it out, and try not to think about it. It'll come to you when you aren't even expecting it.

Good luck kels.

[definecrazy]

I guess. I'm just hoping it will come to me before I'm 50. =/

[neechimei]

I hope you feel better!
I've been going through just about the same thing as you all last year. My life wasn't going the way I wanted it to. And that is why I'm here in Niceville starting all over again, which kinda sucks because I feel I'm wasting my time, but I guess I'd rather start over again then live my life in hell like I did last year.

[definecrazy]

True. It's just so hard for me to even think of starting over. Cause I've considered going back for a different bachelors degree, but I just can't do it. I can't imagine that much more school, which is stupid because there are 40 year olds getting thier degrees and I shouldn't care if time sets me back but I do. OK Yeah. Shutting up now. haha.

[fatkidisfull]

gross, malibu rum and orange liqueur. no wonder you felt sick. all that sugar in it. bleck. im sure it tasted good, but i hate sugary drinks. save your liver for a week from now when i get home!!

and go listen to some blink, it works like magic when youre feeling like shit. i swear.

[definecrazy]

Yeah. I wish someone had told me to stop after I dunno...the 4th drink or so...And i am saving my liver. No more alcohol till you get here! haha.

And blink...ahaha. Man, that always makes me think of us and the battle of the "marks"! =P

[wait_for_rain]

Were you drinking by yourself? That's not good. Save it for going out with friends and stuff...a good rule of thumb is to keep it at a social level with friends...when you have someone there to take care of your bumbling ass if you get wasted...haha.

And something will happen...I'm sure of it. You'll find something to do that you love.

[definecrazy]

Well, it started out that I wanted to try this martini recipe I saw in a magazine and it was "wacky wednesday" so you know how stressed I get about that....I figured I would just have a drink to relax while battling the family. Then I think someone said something about grad school, so I made another drink. Then I saw that I had an e-mail from an idiot and I made another drink. I really didn't feel buzzed or anything at all, but it made me really sick. I think Jenn was right and there was just way too much sugar in those drinks. Ugh. haha.