to help me believe - ryan/keltie, ryan/brendon
ryan/keltie, ryan/brendon
pg-13, ~630 words
november, 2006
She informs him the first time they see each other after he asks her. It's a little awkward, and her hands are shaking (still shaking, she thinks, and bites back a grin through the wave of nervous nausea). "I can't let you be number one," she spits out. "I'm-- I'm a dancer, it's not just what I do, you know? It's who I am, and it's more important than anything else. So, that's. That's what I mean. Everything else comes second, right?"
The little frown on his face makes her stomach clench tighter, but he looks like he's contemplating. After a few tense seconds he shrugs and gives her a half-smile, "The band is really important to me," and she knows that he will understand.
--
Keltie makes completely inappropriate sex jokes at completely inappropriate times. Her laugh is loud and sometimes grating but it just makes him grin. If he hadn't spent the last few years of his life with people attached to his hip, he would say she's clingy - she likes to hold hands and she tucks herself under his arm at every opportunity she gets. Ryan's inspired by how she's so amazingly driven but still manages to act real, no matter how cheesy it sounds in his head - it's almost like hero worship in a way, but he knows how to draw the line between admiration and love, usually.
One day, Brendon stage-whispers to her that he likes her better than any of Ryan's other girlfriends. Keltie laughs and lets her eyes linger on Ryan's face before going to get her knitting from Ryan's bunk. She gives Brendon the scarf once it's finished and she and Ryan both smile whenever he wears it.
july, 2007
Just before she crawls into bed, Keltie sends Ryan a text message with a single, simple heart. The phone buzzes in his pocket against the inside of Brendon's thigh, Ryan's hips between his spread legs. They're stretched out on Brendon's new bed in his new place, Shane and Spencer already asleep beside them.
"Bzzt," Brendon laughs, and Ryan smiles sleepily into his shoulder, drifting already.
"I'll get it later."
september, 2007
Brendon invites Ryan back to his apartment and kisses him against the door, sloppy and drunk. Ryan grins against his mouth.
april, 2008
Because of their schedules, Keltie has to miss Brendon's birthday. When she finally comes out to tour with them for a week, she gives Brendon a friendly kiss on the corner of the mouth, and something in Ryan's stomach sizzles.
It takes him all night, after the show and until he's half asleep to realize that feeling was jealousy, but he can't figure out which one of them he was jealous of.
january, 2009
Hawaii is amazing. Even though they get free WiFi just down the road from where they're staying, Ryan turns off his phone and keeps it off. The ocean is cold most of the time and takes some getting used to, and Keltie laughs while he snaps picture after picture of her running into the shallow waves and running back out again. Most of them come out blurry, but he keeps them all.
--
He writes to the world that his air-mattress in Brendon's guest room is uncomfortable, but he has no idea whether or not this is true.
february, 2009
She reads the message while Ryan is sleeping, packs her things and makes sure her last move before getting the fuck out is shoving him awake and throwing the ring in his face. Ryan doesn't even bother getting out of bed after he reads the same text she read, because he has no excuses and no explanations.
Ryan throws his phone as hard as he can at the floor and goes back to sleep.
pg-13, ~630 words
november, 2006
She informs him the first time they see each other after he asks her. It's a little awkward, and her hands are shaking (still shaking, she thinks, and bites back a grin through the wave of nervous nausea). "I can't let you be number one," she spits out. "I'm-- I'm a dancer, it's not just what I do, you know? It's who I am, and it's more important than anything else. So, that's. That's what I mean. Everything else comes second, right?"
The little frown on his face makes her stomach clench tighter, but he looks like he's contemplating. After a few tense seconds he shrugs and gives her a half-smile, "The band is really important to me," and she knows that he will understand.
--
Keltie makes completely inappropriate sex jokes at completely inappropriate times. Her laugh is loud and sometimes grating but it just makes him grin. If he hadn't spent the last few years of his life with people attached to his hip, he would say she's clingy - she likes to hold hands and she tucks herself under his arm at every opportunity she gets. Ryan's inspired by how she's so amazingly driven but still manages to act real, no matter how cheesy it sounds in his head - it's almost like hero worship in a way, but he knows how to draw the line between admiration and love, usually.
One day, Brendon stage-whispers to her that he likes her better than any of Ryan's other girlfriends. Keltie laughs and lets her eyes linger on Ryan's face before going to get her knitting from Ryan's bunk. She gives Brendon the scarf once it's finished and she and Ryan both smile whenever he wears it.
july, 2007
Just before she crawls into bed, Keltie sends Ryan a text message with a single, simple heart. The phone buzzes in his pocket against the inside of Brendon's thigh, Ryan's hips between his spread legs. They're stretched out on Brendon's new bed in his new place, Shane and Spencer already asleep beside them.
"Bzzt," Brendon laughs, and Ryan smiles sleepily into his shoulder, drifting already.
"I'll get it later."
september, 2007
Brendon invites Ryan back to his apartment and kisses him against the door, sloppy and drunk. Ryan grins against his mouth.
april, 2008
Because of their schedules, Keltie has to miss Brendon's birthday. When she finally comes out to tour with them for a week, she gives Brendon a friendly kiss on the corner of the mouth, and something in Ryan's stomach sizzles.
It takes him all night, after the show and until he's half asleep to realize that feeling was jealousy, but he can't figure out which one of them he was jealous of.
january, 2009
Hawaii is amazing. Even though they get free WiFi just down the road from where they're staying, Ryan turns off his phone and keeps it off. The ocean is cold most of the time and takes some getting used to, and Keltie laughs while he snaps picture after picture of her running into the shallow waves and running back out again. Most of them come out blurry, but he keeps them all.
--
He writes to the world that his air-mattress in Brendon's guest room is uncomfortable, but he has no idea whether or not this is true.
february, 2009
She reads the message while Ryan is sleeping, packs her things and makes sure her last move before getting the fuck out is shoving him awake and throwing the ring in his face. Ryan doesn't even bother getting out of bed after he reads the same text she read, because he has no excuses and no explanations.
Ryan throws his phone as hard as he can at the floor and goes back to sleep.