I wish I wasn't myself.

i want to find another job
i want to make a difference
i want to tutor more students
i want places to go, and people to go with
i want to feel passionate about life
i want to feel confident about school
i want to actually enjoy learning again
i want to stop worrying and feeling uneasy
i want to just let go and let life lead me
i want enough ( Read more... )

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the Electra Amsterdam.

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Last night I was able to watch Explosions in the Sky live in concert. It was a phenomenal experience, very different from all other shows I've seen. They are a purely instrumental band, so there are no actual lyrics. There didn't appear to be any prepubescent girls vying after the band members, neither was there any pushing or shoving, no ( Read more... )

My boyfriend and I went downtown to see the symphony tonight, as we both need concert experience for different music history classes. I really enjoyed the music and it was fun dressing up for the occasion along with so many other people. I would love to do it again. We listened to Adagio for Strings, two film scores including Schindler's List and ( Read more... )

 I'm finding it very hard to be happy this holiday season.
I've become technologically incompetent, I have an on-and-off cold, I dislike long lines and holiday hype, I can't get along with my mother, I make stupid mistakes, shitty computer, shitty phones, shitty school work, shitty season. The two main feelings I've had these past few weeks are ( Read more... )

High grades are definitely possible, as long as I don't blow it.
My dad was sent to the hospital this past week. Heart problems.
Jon and I went to the zoo to help with my extra credit.
Visiting the Subtext store in Little Italy was excellent.


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+ major changes (changes of majors)
+ email correspondence with helpful, "important folk"
+ w. tun
+ anthropology
+ alone time with boyfriend
+ advice from grace
+ pharmacies
+ 95.7% A grade
+ A+, B quizzes
+ thigh highs
+ the office
+ daniel quinn's ishmael
+ danielewski's house of leaves
+ halloween parties
+ cultural anthro. group

+/- costumes
+/- field trips
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Life has been pretty random since my last update, ups and downs, lefts and rights.

Current listens include the Magnetic Fields and youtube videos, apparently. I'm learning to play Death Cab's "I Will Follow You Into the Dark" on guitar. I made my own capo out of a pencil and various rubber bands, it's pretty ridiculous looking, but it does the job ( Read more... )