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so there are two pumpkins on my stairs painted and my paint all over the table downstairs. i can tell that my father painted one because he's an amazing artist. i asked who painted the other one and he told me he got to see my sister. i was shocked. he told me he had to go to the police station in easton, which is two towns away, i don't know why they picked that one. and he has to pay 55$ to visit my sister and be watched by a doctor. he started crying so i went in the bathroom because i hate seeing him cry. he told me he couldn't mention anything about my brother and i to my sister. i guess she acted shy towards him and didn't really open until. she was like "i only get to see you on easter, and christmas" which is bullshit, all of my friends and everyone i know, knows that she lived with my father and i. my dad said kimi says hi, which is our dog and she was CRAZY about her. and hannah was like "whose kimi?" and my father cried more because hannah loved the dog. it's weird that she didn't ask for matthew or i. because the whole time i was gone from the house, she use to tell my dad she missed me and asked when i was coming home. i didn't spend a lot of time with her because she was a spoiled rotten brat, it's not her fault, her parents are both fucked so i could see how she got fucked up in this case. i regret not taking the time to get to know her and such, it's like she's dead. we never get to see her and her bedroom is untouched. sometimes i catch my dad in there cleaning it, like she's gonna come home or something. if anything, my father has treated better then matthew and i combined. she was like heaven sent to him. ever since my father got into that car accident, died, and came back, he's just been trying to make things better. he had everything feed to him by his mother and now that she's gone, he's trying the best he can even though sometimes it doesn't work. i want to see my sister, i miss hannah leigh.