ok so I dont have any clothes for school or any school supplies. Who wants to go shoppig!?!

I went to Rocky Horror it was amazing. I loved it so much. All the guys went in drag. Chappin won the constume contest as a maid with his feather duster. lol. Some people thought I was an actual girl thanks to sam's amazing make up. I'm so glad I went I had so much fun. Lindsey, Alex, Coleman, Amanda, Krista, Jess, Elise, Ben, Chappin, and Sam. It ( Read more... )

not sure if I'm going to Rocky Horror anymore. I dont have anything to wear. and yeah I dont want to look like an idiot and be the only one so I dont think I'm gonna go. oh well.

so I just got back from Rochester. I'm feeling kinda shitty. I'm kinda sad I dont know why it's just my family i guess is making me still a little angry because they are expecting me to be someone that I'm not. I asked my mom if we could stop on the way and see sam. Because I wanted to talk. But she was working so we stopped at her work but it was ( Read more... )

So I saw Hairspray on saturday and it was amazing. I loved Bruce in it. He added this thing that I think he added in that night because Tracy's father was nearly peeing himself while they where dancing. During Your Timeless to Me. Bruce said during a part where it was nothing but silence "This is better than reading Harry Potter.-pause- I'm a ( Read more... )

NYC WAS AMAZING SAM I"M SO HAPPY YOU CAME!!! THIS WAS THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so basically I've been feeling like real shit sense yesterday. Ever sense we went to the mall yesterday and I was trying on clothes and everything I felt like shit and cant get rid of this feeling of disgust when I look in the mirror. Today really topped it off I was getting a haircut and I didn't know what to with it because my family was ( Read more... )

ok so I was a little sad when I came home from camp. I met alot of great people and had a lot of fun. But tonight at the fireworks I was getting pissed. I cant stand alcohol and the influence it has on people. I never wanna be near drunk people again. And also I realize how much family things make me feel like shit. I get there and I get these ( Read more... )

the things I have triggerd by comming back from SYMS for one night and going back tomorrow morning ( Read more... )

ok so yeah I'm so nervous about tomorrow. SYMS starts tomorrow!! AHHHH!!! I'm so scared. What if no one really likes me there? I feel bad because I'll probably be around sam most of the time and I hope she wont get sick of me. I'm excited but scared. I'm more scared of not fitting in I guess and my room mate too because I dont know who it is and ( Read more... )