things i love ( Read more... )

reality makes it hard to just live in your head and masterbate

up and ocming

deh

You get down on your knees and tear open the bag. The smell of warm dough envelops you. The first bite sticks in your throat and you almost gag. You will have to go slowly. You will have to learn everything all over again.
-page 182

deh

count till ten...

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one two three four let me hear you scream if you want some more

deh

sitting in coach, tan and with my sunglasses still on i'm half way to where i want to be, on a plane mid way to somewhere i dont want to be going. back to. over a years worth of hangups and hangovers muttled with contradictions and hypocratic behavior that i others deplore in others and turn a sheepishly blind eye to in myself ( Read more... )

reason number 657 why i need to stop drinking:

1:05 minutes. the length of the voicemail i left on the answering machine for the boy who wants nothing. at 3:47am. it wasnt just a drunk dial, it was a drunk answering machine message.

i was so close.

leaving for sarasota. finally.

yet so far

deh

if i wasnt leaving for sarasota in 12hours ( Read more... )

i put my apples in the wrong basket. then realized i only had oranges to begin with ( Read more... )

wrings neck
breaks electronic device
scratches skin
takes painfully hot shower

i almost gave it away

deh

ive lost it ( Read more... )