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[deidrewilliams]

Breathe in

Robin Williams died last week. He killed himself. There has been an outpouring of reactions, but for me, it hit too close to home.

Breathe out

The voice of depression lives inside of me. "How can you go on surviving? You push away everyone you love, after they tell you they want to help you not kill yourself."

Breathe in"They don't

Comments

[i_17bingo]

I am very, very depressed right now as well, so I understand completely. I hope the doctor helps.

And there is something seriously wrong with Lee.

[deidrewilliams]

I'm sorry to hear that. :(

Lee just shuts down and ignores anything he doesn't want to deal with. I was the first girl he was ever with. He's not very good at knowing how to handle relationships well. But given I've had to stop myself from using Facebook to avoid seeing anything about him that could trigger me, I guess I can see why he can't deal with me right now either.

[bleodswean]

*hugs*

This is really, really well written. The breathing was inspired. You have skill.

[deidrewilliams]

Thank you. It was really, really hard to write. I had a huge lump in my throat for ages after posting it.

[adoptedwriter]

Hugs....beautifully written. I don't even have depression, but after what happened to RW last week, I think a lot of folks, including me, feel like we've taken a beating.
AW

[deidrewilliams]

I think his death hit a lot of people hard for lots of different reasons. I was affected by it for other reasons, too (as a fan, having enjoyed so many of his films, and also having seen him perform live). But the cause of death was what hit me the hardest.

[roina_arwen]

*Hugs* I'm glad you're still here. Just keep breathing!

[deidrewilliams]

Sometimes that's all I can do.

[rayaso]

This was so personal, and so well written, it shows a real gift! I'm glad you sought help for yourself and I hope you are able to get past this.

[deidrewilliams]

Thanks. I'm joining an intensive therapy program now. Hopefully it'll help me get things under control.