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[deirdre_ionuin]

Any minute now, my ship is coming in

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[appearstobe]

It's good that you are, in a way. It's part of life, and as you say. You have to.

[deirdre_ionuin]

It's been five months. Five.

So hard to believe.

[appearstobe]

I know.

[seminalsemiotic]

I wish it didn't make you feel guilty, darling. You deserve to live and love and smile again.

[deirdre_ionuin]

I know I do. Sometimes it feels like it's been forever, and others like it was yesterday. But if I dwell, I'll dwell for the rest of everything. I can't do that. It's not me.

I just...I hope she would have known it doesn't mean I didn't love her. I did. I do.

[seminalsemiotic]

One good thing about being us? If you're not sure, you can tell her. She'll hear. I have no doubt that she spends the best part of her time watching you *small smile*

I understand, with the whole time thing. Especially since I wasn't really here for some of it. Even as the days put more distance between us and that debacle, I don't know if the memories will ever stop being fresh.

I don't want to see you dwell, honey. I just want to see you be Deirdre.

[deirdre_ionuin]

Because we are Christians who believe in Heaven. Yes. :) And that is where she is. Heaven.

No. I don't think they will.

I can be Deirdre :) That, at least, I excel at.

[maximumnerdage]

Yeah. I know what you mean.

[deirdre_ionuin]

I know you do.

♥

[in_spectre_mors]

There's no failing in moving on, Deirdre. And I know - and she knows - that it doesn't mean you love her any less.

[deirdre_ionuin]

I really don't. I just feel bad sometimes. I know it's healthy, and I think I'm doing it the right way. You know...now. But it's hard.

[in_spectre_mors]

I think you are too, Deirdre. I know it's an awful thing... but you are doing it right.

[deirdre_ionuin]

Thanks, Spectreface. Have I mentioned you're the best soul-mate ever?