Weird.

[dektol]

Weird day. My best friend texted me a photo of a positive pregnancy test. I took one last week and it said "not pregnant". I got my period yesterday. It's a weird feeling knowing that someone so close to you is having something you want. I am incredibly excited and happy for her, but also a little sad and jealous. It's a weird emotional day

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[219]

I totally understand the mix of happiness and jealousy. Especially the unwanted pregnancy of two friends this year, in which case, nobody was happy. That made me feel even worse.

Ugh.

[dektol]

It's an emotion I wasn't prepared to deal with. I guess it's mostly jealousy. But I mean, I'm not unhappy for her. I just want it too. Now I can't continue trying because I have weddings booked for the months I would be giving birth. It's frustrating! Guess I can try losing some more weight or something?

Re: Ugh.

[219]

Weddings lock out half of the year for us, and let me tell you, those few days of fertility always happen to fall when one of us is out of town, or I have a yeast infection, or I think it's all locked down, and nothing. I find myself shocked that people can accidentally get pregnant, and wonder why I went through so much trouble NOT to get pregnant for so many years!