11/27/08 1st Thanksgiving

[delaneysdad]

How did we make it through today?
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All wrong. We avoided talking about Delaney. We didn't light a candle. It felt awkward & wrong all day.
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Now I'm in bed crying about how it should be different. I want a do over.
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Note to Self: For Xmas we need to do something to remember & acknowledge. If it makes people sad or uncomfortable too bad. Today we didn't

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[nevermore_x]

Every year, the friday after Thanksgiving, I would go up and visit my friend's family. This was the first year that I didn't. I worked this morning 5am-1pm. It felt weird. And I think I should have went up to see his family even if he is gone.

If there's anything I've learned... it really sucks that hindsight is 20-20. I mean, sure, after it's all said and done you think of what you should have done or could have done. And you make a mental note to do it different next time. But that hindsight pains you so much. I know where you are coming from.

I know this comment didn't make you feel anybetter... I'm not so good at that.

Wishing you well...