crazy hazy days
Oh man, the past few week has just flown by - I can't believe it's been almost a whole WEEK since my last exam. French was alright, although I probably should have studied way more than I did so I'm a bit disappointed about that. Here's a rundown of some of the stuff that's happened in my life lately...
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POST-IB RETREAT
was fantastic. Getting away a bit from the city and just enjoying the air and the company was so great! Leaving from school at around 9 in the morning on Tuesday, we got to the lodge at around 11 30, I think, so it was a long ride but it was a funny one; we played that game where you name one thing for each letter of the alphabet and it was easier to do political systems than it was for us to name fruits HAHAHA. When we got to Cultus Lake we had lunch at the lodge and went canoeing which was eventful, especially the part where we couldn't find our canoes ha. After dinner that night we had a campfire which was lovely and made smores and had hot chocolate and it was sort of sad knowing that this was the last campfire I'd have with these people, ever. :( We spent some time after that getting ambushed by the boys and talking and painting nails until we had to go back to our segregated cabins (boys and girls - you know you're not quite out of high school yet when...) but then the girls stayed up until around 3 30 just talking and gossiping and it was loads of fun.
The next morning we went to the waterpark which was so so fantastic. There aren't many words to describe it... I mean, it was a waterpark. Slides and watery pools and such. I loved it, even though the rain didn't love me and I froze my ass off in it, but it was all good. We went to get lunch at McDonald's afterwards and by the time we got home I was ready to sleep for about a week.
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NEON ICE CREAM CONE
I'm just going to take this time to show you the INCREDIBLE NEON ICE CREAM I had yesterday:
correct, you are seeing what you think you're seeing. that's a HOT PINK ice cream cone, NEON MINT GREEN chocolate-chip icecream clearly storebought, and COLOURED SPRINKLES. Never has my life been so complete.
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TRI-SERVICE BALL
was so tiring but also loads of fun. A dance of 700 people? yes please. I was mostly stoked to get all dolled up (which I did) but once we got there and started dancing I ended up enjoying myself wayyy more than I expected! It was super slow for the first 45 minutes with people just kind of standing around and the DJ playing weird voiceless unst unst music and that was pretty dull. However once good music started playing that was actually distinguishable from the random dance beats the DJ had on, it really picked up and I started having a lot of fun. Again, I was surprised. I think it was the third dance I've been to? yeah.
MAJOR REGRET OF THE NIGHT: rejecting the guy who asked me to dance. it seemed like sort of an unspoken thing that everyone was enjoying the night with their own friends/SOs, and so when this guy came up behind me and tapped me on the shoulder I was surprised and said no which I regret so much! problem -
1. he was pretty cute. I couldn't tell really because it was dark inside but WHATEVER I think he looked decent.
2. that will probably be the only time that will ever happen to me because I don't go to dance-y places with people I don't know
3. I'M SINGLE. I think sometimes I still operate under the assumption that I'm in a relationship. NOT COOL.
as soon as he went away I said to myself WAIT WHAT WAIT NOOO COME BACKKKK ;_;
putting my usual crushing lack of self-confidence aside, I was shocked at how much I had fun! it's as if something got out of me and I ended up so excited and stoked to be part of it all. Dancing was so much fun (cue millionth time I've used the word fun in this entry) and idk, it just felt really good. There was a moment during the dance where I thought to myself, I can see myself doing this again. And by that I don't mean the dancing, I mean the general... outward-ness. I'm such an inherent introvert that I usually have so many qualms about just kind of letting myself go and yesterday night showed me that I actually, maybe, sort of, like it. It's too bad I'm much more comfortable at the outset at being a reclusive clam because I had a really good time. I woke up this morning with ridiculous amounts of muscle pain in my calves and neck and lower back though. I'm getting too old for this (or something).
that all being said, let it be noted that seeing your cousin outside of a family dinner context with his friends is very, very odd.
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I thought about this briefly at camp but I was thinking to myself about what went on at the dance and it suddenly hit me that I'm actually really happy with whoever has come out of the past two years of my life. There's been a lot of hard stuff - all the academic but also more significantly emotional stress that came with finishing IB, a lot of shifts and changes in relationships that I've never really felt comfortable with. I had a really crappy couple of months back there and I'm certain because of them that someone doesn't want to talk to me in fear that I'll revert to my batshit insanity but the person I am now? I'm pretty happy. I'm going to a good place, I feel like I'm going to learn a lot about myself in the next few months, and I'm happy with that. It's funny that tying everything up with graduation actually makes me feel more confident - a new start is something I really want. I guess that factors into my determination to get a job and start new projects that make me feel good.
Of course I'll probably say the complete opposite in a matter of days but STILL, overall, I'm feeling good. :)
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Other things on my mind: I still have to get my hair cut (maybe on Tuesday?) and get a job (nobody has called me back since my application frenzy last Friday - I'm waiting a couple more days and then will probably drop a whole load more resumes sometime this week, le sigh). also I'm really liking how this journal is coming along. It's nice to use it as more than an occasional place to vent.
So there's that. I am now off to do... well, I don't actually know. I should probably pick out an outfit for my sister's university convocation though. and IB Banquet. and Awards Night... (all events happening in the next three days. expect a post!)
let's hope I will look this good.
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POST-IB RETREAT
was fantastic. Getting away a bit from the city and just enjoying the air and the company was so great! Leaving from school at around 9 in the morning on Tuesday, we got to the lodge at around 11 30, I think, so it was a long ride but it was a funny one; we played that game where you name one thing for each letter of the alphabet and it was easier to do political systems than it was for us to name fruits HAHAHA. When we got to Cultus Lake we had lunch at the lodge and went canoeing which was eventful, especially the part where we couldn't find our canoes ha. After dinner that night we had a campfire which was lovely and made smores and had hot chocolate and it was sort of sad knowing that this was the last campfire I'd have with these people, ever. :( We spent some time after that getting ambushed by the boys and talking and painting nails until we had to go back to our segregated cabins (boys and girls - you know you're not quite out of high school yet when...) but then the girls stayed up until around 3 30 just talking and gossiping and it was loads of fun.
The next morning we went to the waterpark which was so so fantastic. There aren't many words to describe it... I mean, it was a waterpark. Slides and watery pools and such. I loved it, even though the rain didn't love me and I froze my ass off in it, but it was all good. We went to get lunch at McDonald's afterwards and by the time we got home I was ready to sleep for about a week.
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NEON ICE CREAM CONE
I'm just going to take this time to show you the INCREDIBLE NEON ICE CREAM I had yesterday:
correct, you are seeing what you think you're seeing. that's a HOT PINK ice cream cone, NEON MINT GREEN chocolate-chip icecream clearly storebought, and COLOURED SPRINKLES. Never has my life been so complete.
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TRI-SERVICE BALL
was so tiring but also loads of fun. A dance of 700 people? yes please. I was mostly stoked to get all dolled up (which I did) but once we got there and started dancing I ended up enjoying myself wayyy more than I expected! It was super slow for the first 45 minutes with people just kind of standing around and the DJ playing weird voiceless unst unst music and that was pretty dull. However once good music started playing that was actually distinguishable from the random dance beats the DJ had on, it really picked up and I started having a lot of fun. Again, I was surprised. I think it was the third dance I've been to? yeah.
MAJOR REGRET OF THE NIGHT: rejecting the guy who asked me to dance. it seemed like sort of an unspoken thing that everyone was enjoying the night with their own friends/SOs, and so when this guy came up behind me and tapped me on the shoulder I was surprised and said no which I regret so much! problem -
1. he was pretty cute. I couldn't tell really because it was dark inside but WHATEVER I think he looked decent.
2. that will probably be the only time that will ever happen to me because I don't go to dance-y places with people I don't know
3. I'M SINGLE. I think sometimes I still operate under the assumption that I'm in a relationship. NOT COOL.
as soon as he went away I said to myself WAIT WHAT WAIT NOOO COME BACKKKK ;_;
putting my usual crushing lack of self-confidence aside, I was shocked at how much I had fun! it's as if something got out of me and I ended up so excited and stoked to be part of it all. Dancing was so much fun (cue millionth time I've used the word fun in this entry) and idk, it just felt really good. There was a moment during the dance where I thought to myself, I can see myself doing this again. And by that I don't mean the dancing, I mean the general... outward-ness. I'm such an inherent introvert that I usually have so many qualms about just kind of letting myself go and yesterday night showed me that I actually, maybe, sort of, like it. It's too bad I'm much more comfortable at the outset at being a reclusive clam because I had a really good time. I woke up this morning with ridiculous amounts of muscle pain in my calves and neck and lower back though. I'm getting too old for this (or something).
that all being said, let it be noted that seeing your cousin outside of a family dinner context with his friends is very, very odd.
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I thought about this briefly at camp but I was thinking to myself about what went on at the dance and it suddenly hit me that I'm actually really happy with whoever has come out of the past two years of my life. There's been a lot of hard stuff - all the academic but also more significantly emotional stress that came with finishing IB, a lot of shifts and changes in relationships that I've never really felt comfortable with. I had a really crappy couple of months back there and I'm certain because of them that someone doesn't want to talk to me in fear that I'll revert to my batshit insanity but the person I am now? I'm pretty happy. I'm going to a good place, I feel like I'm going to learn a lot about myself in the next few months, and I'm happy with that. It's funny that tying everything up with graduation actually makes me feel more confident - a new start is something I really want. I guess that factors into my determination to get a job and start new projects that make me feel good.
Of course I'll probably say the complete opposite in a matter of days but STILL, overall, I'm feeling good. :)
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Other things on my mind: I still have to get my hair cut (maybe on Tuesday?) and get a job (nobody has called me back since my application frenzy last Friday - I'm waiting a couple more days and then will probably drop a whole load more resumes sometime this week, le sigh). also I'm really liking how this journal is coming along. It's nice to use it as more than an occasional place to vent.
So there's that. I am now off to do... well, I don't actually know. I should probably pick out an outfit for my sister's university convocation though. and IB Banquet. and Awards Night... (all events happening in the next three days. expect a post!)
let's hope I will look this good.