Christmas is coming...so lets pull on our happy faces
Ight, where to start because this is going to be a long post I think...
Firstly a little bitch with a question, although not originally set out to be a bitch this is gonna end that way so apologies in advance...
Where were you this morning, I waited from like 30 past (was 10 mins late, called you and your phone was off) so I waited thinking you may be on the bus, till about 10 to, then I had to get the bus to avoid being too late for college, which I was, but that don’t bother me, ‘cos its only Kelly...
I hope your ok, and didn’t just sleep in... You did seem interested in seeing me this morning...and erm on another note. I hate my phone voice...
Ok then, now to further information, which will generate bitches, but as long as people understand that what is written on LJ stays on LJ then I’m fine with it, its my diary so I’m gonna write it, about me, I will bitch I will praise and I will probably make a post in the future about a suicide not...I’m so sorry <3 (not really just thought since I have your attention would be nice to fuck about)
(Ethel will understand)
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Iain
Here is the bitch about you.... I saw you today for the first time in about three weeks...
You never come out any more, you never see me or some of your friends, yet you seem happy to go drinking with other people... what happened to the drinking together, I want that to be back. I don’t want to have to go drinking alone at Christmas.
Emma
Nothing really to say to you except erm...excel saga...I’m still getting it when you die...I remember your mock will...not that I’m planning your death or anything *innocent look*
TIS MINE!!!
Carrie-Anne
I get the feeling that this is going to be a long post, but I don’t mean it to.
Firstly I don’t talk to you as much as I used to, and I can remember calls at like three in the morning, asking for advice, or when I was upset…I don’t get those kind of calls now.
Secondly the reason I’ve been “avoiding” you recently (yes I understand that makes me sound like a hypocrite) because I’m sick of what you do talk about when I do get a convocation going…for example, don’t call me when you want to know what people are saying or doing and expect me to tell you about it because in all honesty I’m getting sick of being used for gossip…and on that note, don’t get so upset when I tell people common knowledge that like most of our friends know, because if you refer to me as m’dear you know for a fact I ain’t going to respond on MSN it avoids arguments. I do have an apology though, I apologise for telling Ben to go with it, and talk to you if he likes you, because you had just broke up with Ethel, and I wanted you to be happy, and what better way to be happy then to find somebody wanting your affection…
Ben
On that note, stop stalky-ness, she has told you that she doesn’t like you like that, so it would be best to stop annoying her, she is a cool friend, but that’s all she will ever be…
Chelsey
Not much to say, cool friend, don’t see enough of...RAWR!
Garth
What to say
There was some evilness about a week ago, I’m sorry, hope that its been solved.
Danielle
Same for you, evilness a week ago…lets go to the pub-ness ^^
Ethel
I don’t have a lot to say about you, except that as I’m sure you think it of me recently you were a bit of a nob, with the avoiding, but since you invited me out to yours, and let me crash most o the week end, you saved yourself. Lots of ground was covered, and well, I kinda made a sort of friend into a friend LOL.
All in all I had fun
Ross
Moving swiftly on here I think. He knows what I don’t agree with, and I aint gonna waste time talking about it seeing that I’ve kinda told about all friends my views on it anyway.
For all those friends who didn’t get a mention in the bitchy section you are lucky.
Erm anyway off to more promising topics.
Sitting in college bored (obviously due to this post)
I just don’t have the energy to stay here, and I would rather be off having fun, or working, but there isn’t a lot that I can do about it…
I’m stuck on this college course and I intend to finish it.
Really badly hurt my head the other day, and well I still feel it today, I was walking out of my bedroom door, and somehow I could see it coming, but something happened and I hit the left side of my head against the door, which is odd considering that my bedroom door opens from the right…
Erm, I miss not being in a relationship, and not having someone who I can talk to and spend time with, and it sucks that I promised myself that I wouldn’t get dependent on a relationship, however it seems that I am.
I don’t really have the energy to do a lot of things recently, and I would rather stay at home, than arrange to meet friends, but I want to meet up with friends too, and it sucks that they are all to busy to spend time.
My sleep pattern is fucked at the moment too, I’m finding id rather sleep during the day than at night and well, make myself late for arrangements, whish is something I don’t like doing.
Despite saying all this though, I don’t want sympathy, and I don’t feel unhappy about it. I don’t have any feelings on it really, I mean as I type I’m laughing to myself, thinking how sad this makes me seem, but it’s a little insight into the fucked up world of me I guess.
I want what I cant have anymore, and I’m not talking about Adele here for a change, I had the chance three years ago to be with someone I loved, but I said no because I was worried about her credit, and her image in school, and now she is settled and has a lovely boyfriend…part of me is happy for her, yet again part of me is kicking myself. I understand that I might not come out with the most appropriate things at the best of times, and that well…my methods are really fucked up….but I do know what I want.
I want things to be the way they were, where we were a big group of close friends,
Before the bitching ranting and raving, and before I turned into suck a dick for posting a comment like this…
So please after reading this, comment with what you want, but make another comment, telling me what you want, and see how many of our friends want the same things…
Bring back the uber random hug girl