enough

[delson]

so after almost two weeks at home, i am definately ready to get back to santa maria, i have had enough of my house, my mother, everything. it's odd, but this isn't my home anymore, i have been gone for so long that everything has moved on without me, people are still glad to see me, but it's not like they would die if i didn't come home ever. i do

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[wheresmybike]

I know exactly how you feel. I miss you imensly, especally your hugs. Good luck on your last semester and know that I will never forget you. More soon...

Karen F.

[bwaygeek]

It's good to finally see proof that you still remember what a computer is! :-) Anyhow, I just thought I'd say I totally understand how you feel about when home isn't home anymore. It's a sad realization, but I suppose in the long run, when we get to make our own homes one day, we'll be able to fully appreciate that sense of home we'd been missing since we left our childhood homes behind. (this is coming from someone who still has to spend another 19 days in my so called 'home' trying to find some sort of sense of optimism to get me through it!)
Oh, and about the girl....all I can say is I'm sorry. Wanting someone you can't have still remains probably the worst emotion you can possibly feel.
But promise me you'll try and enjoy the last few months at PCPA, even if you don't believe me now, you're going to miss it more than you can possibly imagine.
Love lots

[texasfairy7]

"everything has moved on without me, people are still glad to see me, but it's not like they would die if i didn't come home ever. i do miss these people, and they tell me they miss me too, but i don't know, i just didn't feel too wanted around here."

Wow...could you be more wrong? Remember me? The one that you call to check on to make sure I haven't crawled into a hole while crying uncontrollably? I'd fall apart if it wasn't for you...

not you silly bunny

[delson]

ok, so totally not you, it was mainly the non highschool group friends, excluding jason, he's one of them. but like mikeil, or elliot, as fun as they are, seemed like they were rather apathetic to my existance in the southern portion of california, maybve i am incorrect, but that's just how it felt to me. but not you, i love you, you're wonderful and everything. so yeah

ps. bet you can't guess which girl i was talking about?

Re: not you silly bunny

[texasfairy7]

Yeah I was confused about that...I figured Chantal, but Imma not know for sure

Re: not you silly bunny

[yinyanglibra]

i think so too knowing it is me.

[yinyanglibra]

Delosn delson Delson what am i goint to do with you?
It is not that you are not good enough for me (that is the total wrong way to go) we just fucked up our chances together ok. I'ved moved on but i will always love you you will always be there for me and you will always be there for me. i consider you the only true friend i have up here....and that is a lot to say cause i have made pretty good friends here. (i.e. ryan, darcy and others) Your stuck with me for life ok but not in a relationship way ok? Once you understand that then you will be happy. I love you but we fucked up ok. Ruined our chances togther. Please no more pining ok? Your better then that and well i frankly am not worth being pined over!
I love you and always will, talk to me ok?

Chantal

[a_cole]

Delson, give me your cell phone number. damn it. or call me. I've lost it and I have some news to tell you.