Comments | delyn14: A little better..

delyn14

A little better..

Mar 06, 2005 12:33

I went back to my house today. I knew my parents wouldn't let me go, and I knew that I HAD to do it alone, so I waited until my dad went to church and then I told mom I needed to borrow the car to go to Kohl's. I managed to find where my dad put my housekeys, and off I went. It really wasn't that bad. I sat there and talked to him for about half an ( Read more... )

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sgda March 6 2005, 19:51:55 UTC

Madelyn, honey, I just heard what has happened in your life. I posted on glitter but I wanted to come here to tell you that I am thinking of you. This is so hard and so awful. Let your family care for you, but don't let them try to direct your grief. You are such a wonderful girl and it breaks my heart to see your spirit crushed with something like this. You will survive, even though sometimes it will feel like you won't. You have a huge community of women behind you, praying for you and wishing for you and sending you love. I know that doesn't take away the pain, but I hope it gives you a little bit of comfort to think of all the people who love you.
-trena (nicegirl512 on glitter)

roxy_craft March 6 2005, 20:18:26 UTC

Talking to him helps I'm sure. I still talk to my ex sometimes(who died when I was 18). People used to think I was nuts, but I felt him there.
Like sgda said, don't let anyone tell you how to grieve. And I'm thinking of you often.
((hugs))

delyn14 March 6 2005, 20:21:49 UTC

I didn't know that you had been through something like this too. That's comforting.

roxy_craft March 6 2005, 20:26:16 UTC

Yeah, when I was 18 my first love was killed on his motorcycle by a drunk driver. He was 18 also. We had a long history (about 4 years of dating on and off)
He was an amazing guy too and I feel blessed now that I got to be such a big part of his short life.
Either way, I know it's hard to hear anything right now, but know that I got through it.
You take a peice of him with you forever, but in a good way.

novemberdebut March 6 2005, 20:29:21 UTC

I dont know if its any comfort but im thinking of you. My friend Ben died two years ago in his sleep and I was the last person outside of his family he talked to. I still think about him a lot and sometimes when I am overcome by grief I feel him around..as weird as that might sound...

annstarlett March 6 2005, 21:01:42 UTC

i don't know if sharing our grief stories would help you, but it'll soon be the first death anniversary of my ex. i still feel him too, still talk to him, think about him very often. he took his own life so i guess our stories are not similar in this point, but i think it'll still be comforting to look at all of us who have gotten through it. sharing helps me a whole lot, i hope it helps you too, if not well i'm sorry. you'll never forget, madelyn, but you'll heal. slowly. much hugs to you, and sorry if my words have hurt you, they weren't meant to.

delyn14 March 6 2005, 21:04:03 UTC

No, it made me feel better, actually.

lucimama March 6 2005, 21:14:43 UTC

I'm glad you did this for yourself. Grieving sucks so bad, and when you can't even be in your familiar surroundings, it's so much harder. I know you're getting comfort from your parents, so it's a balance thing, but this description sounds like it was a really good thing you did for yourself.

I've been thinking about you all weekend, trying to send you what strength and peace I can. Take your time, feel what you need to feel, try not to disappear from all of it, but most of all, do what you feel you need to do.

Luci