Two days before I left, Blockbuster jacked all the money in my account, right before I left for Georgia. Left me with one cent in the bank. Now that is cold blooded. I had to call in sick on my last day in New York, and instead of resting and packing, I spent the whole day trying to get my $58.63 back, only to fail ( Read more... )

I am in Georgia now. The bus ride was terrible.

Lately I have felt trapped inside my body. As if, I live on these chemical impulses that tell my brain that I am feeling something and everything seems muted. There are times though, when I can feel my soul, things seem extremely vivid. I don't know who it is that I am to othersa, but I do know that how I feel is not who I really am ( Read more... )

Today is shaping up to be a low morale "why bother" kind of day.

Allison told me last night that something about me has changed and I look more grown up.
She convinced me to grow a goatee.
I finished my first song. The only thing it needs now is a name.
I got MySpaceI am going to Georgia this Thanksgiving if I have to sell my grandmother to get there. I'm only gonna be there a few days, but I think I may go see ( Read more... )

I got my review at work. Got the highest raise possible, and now I am making $8.80 an hour and have been promised a promotion by my assistant manager, the manager and the district manager have practically promised me a promotion in the next couple of months ( Read more... )

Have I really become so cold and jaded? Jesus. When did I develope these trust issues?
It sounds so trite! I am aware that they are irrational, and voicing them usually gets me into trouble because I often say awkward unnessesary shit that stirs up uncomfortable controversy.
I didn't used to feel this way. What has changed, and why?

I didn't end up going to California for undisclosed reasons. People generally feel sorry for me because they knew how much I wanted to either get closure or patch things up, but for some reason, I am very content with not being able to go. I've spent the time off from work writing and playing guitar. Doing lots of soul searching and trying to... ( Read more... )

Today I have consumed 20 ounces of milk fat. Yes!

The greatest show on television. So dramatic and captivating. Still nearing the end of season two, and season three starts in a few days. If there was ever a show that I would actually make my schedule around, It's Nip Tuck. That show is intense ( Read more... )