I know nothing.
So... The last few days, I found my lack of knowledge involving everything lj is really irritating and disgraceful. And what's even worse, something this little adds to my irritated and pissed off state and further motivates my "I don't deserve anybody in my life" and "I'm a major idiot so I just won't speak" attitudes. Seriously, I wish I was joking. And yes, it's lame, but it's true. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT LJ. What am I talking about? Well, gee, here's a list then.
1. It took me months to figure out how to do an lj cut. I STILL MESS IT UP!
2. If I reply to a comment and see a mistake, I CAN'T EDIT IT! SO, I HAVE TO DELETE IT. AND THEN MAKE A NEW FIXED AND CORRECTED REPLY. Why is this a big deal? CUZ EVERYONE ELSE CAN EDIT IT AND AVOID THE WHOLE DELETING AND POSTING A NEW THING PROCESS. THEREFORE, I'M LAME. (btw, if someone's comments on how to edit a reply, I'd appreciate it. It would make me less lame. Otherwise, proceed to point and laugh at me.)
3. I can't do all the spiffy lj text font stuff most people can do. Yea, I can do basic shit, but I can't format at an advanced level. I can make different colors, different font sizes, but that's about it. LAME.
4. I forget to tag everything. TAGGING WOULD HELP IF I NEED TO FIND A SPECIFIC ENTRY I WROTE, BUT NO. I DON'T TAG APPROPRIATELY. I know I can just tag whatever afterwards too, but I find my starting lameness to be horrible.
5. I CAN'T MAKE A NICE LAYOUT. OR, I CAN'T USE SOMEONE ELSE'S LAYOUT WORK. WHY? CUZ I DON'T KNOW. PEOPLE SHOULD HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE TO MAKE THINGS WORK. BUT HEY, I OBVIOUSLY DON'T!
Obviously, I have problems if I'm being all aggressive over these things. And believe me, there's more problems I have. But what am I supposed to do? I can't control my mood swings or my aggression towards myself for being a lame ass. I guess when it's something little like this, it makes you angrier at yourself for not knowing. You already don't know hard shit, but then you don't know the little? Fucking bullshit.
So yea, that's my post. That's an entry. It's not glammed up cuz I'm lame. I wish I wasn't lame. But I am. I'm sorry for this agro post. It's not directed towards anyone. If you guys can glam up something, GO FOR IT! I APPROVE! CUZ I LIKE LOOKING AT PRETTY STUFF! I'm mad cuz I don't know how to do most of it. And when I try using search engines that give me the shit I need to do everything, I fuck it up.
Basically, this is an "I am lame. I am a failure. I am an idiot. So I need to go punch a wall now" post. Self-deprecating, aggressive, irritated as all hell, type of rant.
That's kind of it.
By the way, sorry for the lack of updates on the 'Salvage My Heart' fic. That's a fail on my part too. Cuz I fail. Hopefully my failing will end this weekend. If you don't see an update...well...you know what that means.
I'm still failing.
/self-deprecation post