broken

[demonakitty]

I don't know what to do. I keep having these waves of emotion at inappropriate times and places where all I want to do it sit in the corner and cry. it only makes it worse to know that i've done this to myself. subtlety aside, i got completely wasted one night in vegas and slept with chris. actually, we both got completely wasted. we started

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[morwennaf]

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[kubryk]

Deep breath,. . . .everything is going to be ok.

[ecfrost]

I love you and I wish I were there to give you a big hug and then let you kick my ass at video games ;)

But you know what? Nick may calm down in the next few days. And while what you did sucks, at least you had no plans to sleep with him. And you've learned from your mistakes.

And a little part of me wants to hurt Nick if you guys break up cuz I know how you felt about Laura and you stuck around...

[zeppelin54]

*agrees with Kubryk*
Deep breath. Alright, count to three, put your "calm" hat on.

You're right. Hypocrisy means nothing if he wants to end it. But, you don't know what the future holds, and while it is shit-your-pants scary, it's not the end of the world either way. One happens to be a better option than the other, but...you see what I'm saying.
I have an opinion. That opinion is that logic, most times, prevails. At least it makes sense out of any situation.
Simply put...when you guys talk, you need to examine how much you love each other. Is a fuck up still a fuck up if you are truly sorry about it? Is it better to admit right away and take responsibility? In the end, if you still love each other, does it mean anything?
Por ejemplo, yo amo a Sarah mas q' alguna cosa y, si, y me devastarian si ella engano a mi. Pero, si ella me ama y tiene siento, tengo q' perdonarla. No tenia mucho confianza en ella, pero...si.

[bark2themoon]

If you really love him that much, then stick it out, but frankly, you two have a relationship that borders on being just plain...out there. "Unhealthy" is scratching the surface in my opinion, but you can take that as you see fit.

Being somewhat in this position roughly 2+ years ago, my advice is just walk away. It may not seem like something you WANT to do, and I can understand that, but believe me, hun, it is not a question of want; it's more of a question of NEED. You will hurt, you will grieve, and every song you hear on the radio will make you want to start sobbing. It won't be pretty and it will make you feel sick at some points in time. But dammit, you will get through it, you will be stronger for it as well as wiser, and I can promise you, you WILL love again.