i havent updated in while...so heres what ya'll have missed in the last however many days or weeks it has been. Some of my family came up from tennessee and stayed with us for like a week. oh that was fun. *rolls her eyes* I had my choir concert and that really sucked. My choir really does suck cuz its got a whole what like 8 people in it? wow... ( Read more... )

Sooo yeah yesterday kinda sucked alot. Me and Michael had a little talk...and i guess im alone once again... This really sux alot. Why do i have to get soooo attached to people? Why cant i just keep my guard up if i do that...i can never get hurt. And yeah then people will get all pissy at me and saying im pushing them away if i dont let them in.. ( Read more... )

Well today has been a pretty shity day. I have so much going on with school and homework and what not. My biology II teacher gave us a 200 point project and expects us to finish it in two weeks. We have to give a 20 minute presentation, write a 2-3 page paper, give notes to our fellow students AND make a worksheet for them to do. Most of that is ( Read more... )

Today i just got back from tennessee. I had some fun, saw my family and found out i have a cousion that goes to South Lake i never met...haha funny. I went to a bar, sang some karokee and went cow tipping haha..i mean come on what else is there to do in the middle of nowhere? oh yeah i also went to manson hollar or some shit like that...its suppost ( Read more... )

Well i havent updated in a while so yeah i decided to it now..uhhh well my last day of school is on wed. and im not really looking forward to it. Jenny's goin to mertlie beach on sunday and im not gonna see her again till prom, cuz im going with her. And im gonna miss all my peeps, like Lisa, Stevo, Rob, (even thou i just kinda re-met him) Keith, ( Read more... )

Well this weekend fuckin blowed ass. I did aboslutly nothing once again. This weekend was my only weekend left to do anything cuz of the whole moving thing and no one could do anything. So im kinda pissed off about that. Next weekend im packing and shit so im not gonna be able to do anything. Sara's been kinda makin me mad but oh well i've been ( Read more... )

Today im feeling all lonely and shit again..im in one of my lows in my bi polarness cycle..lol :-/ I wrote a new poem but its about sucide and shit. I'm not really type of person to talk about that shit but i took my notebook of my feelings and emotions that i wrote down in and i came up with a poem...so i guess its how im feeling. But its not like ( Read more... )

Okay today is a fuckin saterday...the weekend and i have notta damn thing to do, yesterday i went to bed at 10 waitin for michael to come home so i could talk to him but oh well i got tired and crashed. I got kinda sad today too and michael and mike kinda talked to me, michael told me i had a problem for bein depressed all the time (which i know ( Read more... )

Today is an icky day, Im all sad and depressed and lonely. I hate bein lonely its the worst feeling in the world. I'm so sick of always beening alone haveing to hug my pillow every night. I miss having someone to cuddle with and talk to. Ahh lifes a bitch. I need sara...i need to talk to her, but i dont know where she is right now. If ya'll are ( Read more... )

Hmm..today was an okay day i guess. I got up early to get a ride to school, but my brother ditched me and i had to walk in the cold...oh what fun. School went okay did all my work so i have no homework today yay! I came home worked out for a bit, and im really sore, my thighs really hurt. But thats okay i guess...i kinda like pain to a certain ( Read more... )