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[Private//Hackable]
Three days. Three days of darkness. For a warning not met. The third night shall end in the final penance.
I am.. prepared, I suppose. There is so much I have and do not have anymore. Yet to be judged for what I have wanted and accepted.. perhaps it was better when I had not opened myself to anything else at all. There was no pain. There was nothing to keep me back from doing as I pleased.
But now, I have fallen deeply into the mistake of love and care. To love my companions, I have embraced this darkness that was a part of me and I had rebuked it.
He understood. Only he did. As well as that child. A shame, that only two amongst many, would know why. To know that this brings me no real joy, but completes a part of me I had yearned to complete for so long.
I find it humorous, that those who have embraced the darkness for the very same reasons I have right now, would judge me. To make my decision seem an offense to their needs. Has it become a sin, to wish for completion? MY completion, and not everyone else's?
It grows even easier to hate.
But I will not.
I will show them all that my spirit is alive, even if my worth is dead.
---
I am ready.
I also wish to apologise.. for what I did not do.
That is all.
... perhaps a drink would be nice, right now.
[ooc; See here. Vincent's to be punished. Details of what is to happen to him are in the ooc note, so he's going to generally going to avoid people if they ask about him. He's been returning to the mansion for the last three days and disappearing to his room and three hours before the punishment, he will quietly leave. He's going to be talking to people, but don't expect anything out of the ordinary.]
Three days. Three days of darkness. For a warning not met. The third night shall end in the final penance.
I am.. prepared, I suppose. There is so much I have and do not have anymore. Yet to be judged for what I have wanted and accepted.. perhaps it was better when I had not opened myself to anything else at all. There was no pain. There was nothing to keep me back from doing as I pleased.
But now, I have fallen deeply into the mistake of love and care. To love my companions, I have embraced this darkness that was a part of me and I had rebuked it.
He understood. Only he did. As well as that child. A shame, that only two amongst many, would know why. To know that this brings me no real joy, but completes a part of me I had yearned to complete for so long.
I find it humorous, that those who have embraced the darkness for the very same reasons I have right now, would judge me. To make my decision seem an offense to their needs. Has it become a sin, to wish for completion? MY completion, and not everyone else's?
It grows even easier to hate.
But I will not.
I will show them all that my spirit is alive, even if my worth is dead.
---
I am ready.
I also wish to apologise.. for what I did not do.
That is all.
... perhaps a drink would be nice, right now.
[ooc; See here. Vincent's to be punished. Details of what is to happen to him are in the ooc note, so he's going to generally going to avoid people if they ask about him. He's been returning to the mansion for the last three days and disappearing to his room and three hours before the punishment, he will quietly leave. He's going to be talking to people, but don't expect anything out of the ordinary.]