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[denisjohnson]

without my friends back at college, I am useless.

I need something new, something exciting...

I am 19-years-old...so young and incapable of handling much.

sorry I do not write much...I lack time and grace...

If only I knew what I wanted, and just how to get what I wanted.

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[convents]

If only I knew what I wanted, and just how to get what I wanted.

I'm in the same boat you are.

[convents]

to be honest, when i first looked at your comment, i thought you were too young to even say something like that.

and then i think to myself, when i was your age, i asked the same question, contained the same thought that i still do.

but sadly, i know what i want now and that's to give up my will to life...to only do the will of God...it's the only reason i am at the college i am at...

i don't know if you believe in God or not, but I do...and I am not preaching...I promise, just saying...when I thought it was going off to a college, gaining amazing friends, finding that significant other...I was dead on the inside...and today I felt that unpeacefulness that I felt two years ago. but to know that what I want will never happen, and that I am in the ray of God's will...that's what makes me most peaceful. sure, I do not know how it will always turn out, but it will...in due time.

wheather you believe in God or not, it doesn't matter when it comes to knowing that God loves you (and me). it's cheap, but true.

[convents]

this is me, sheila, by the way...just too lazy to sign in and remember my password at the moment.

take care, dear...I hope you have an amazing week...when do you return to school?

[convents]

You're not preaching, don't worry. But I think it's admirable that you have the optimism and peacefulness just from the mere thought of God and his will. No, I don't particularly believe in God. For a while I considered myself to be Agnostic, but now I feel that I'm an Atheist, but even that term seems too strong or awkward to apply to me. However, I just say that I don't believe in him and I also have no problem with the people that do, or say such things like you did. It actually makes me admire people for believing in Him and having such optimism, like I had stated at the very beginning.

Thank you, I hope your week goes just as well :)

I actually had to go back to school on the 2nd :(