狗眼看人低

[deobserver]

我知道现实是这样的，但是还是很难接受。被看扁的感受真的很不良。虽然说，不要管人家怎么样看待我，但是还不能做到。可能是心虚吧。面对事实让我心冷。最近我因为看了《百家讲坛》 -- 论文 （U 频道） 而对中国文化与学问又感到兴趣。《论文》，《三字经》，《孙子兵法》等等原本是以文言文写的，一点都不容易看所以第一次碰面就放弃。那时我还是十几岁罢了。长大了就像小孩，一直问，这是什么意思，那是为什么。对世界上的一切很反感。中国历史奈了这么久，其中应该有某样东西我能学习，运用。

Comments

[prodigal_sun]

man, my eyes just glazed over attempting to read that hehe. and what were you saying about difficulty communicating in chinese?!

[deobserver]

Hehe. Well, it's pretty bad Chinese. I know I have difficulty communicating when I'm trying to express an idea in a certain language to a "native speaker" and I can't complete a sentence without lapsing into the occasional English word or term. I'm not sure what I wrote above is even grammatical. I definitely need to hunt up a good book on grammar.