So I have calmed down a bit considerably... I can't study anymore, but I'm pretty sure that I know the information well. My brain is fried. If I don't do well on this exam I will most definitely kill something/someone. But anywho... All I want is for this week to be over, and to get some SLEEP. And maybe some boyfriend company... we'll see how ( Read more... )

I just saw a certain person's car on my way back here... and it made me want to physically hurt someone. Not just anyone, a specific person. My anger is focused on this person, although it's really me I'm angry with. And I'm angry with him b/c he allowed me to do this. I feel ashamed, and vulnerable. He allowed me to feel this way... I allowed ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I've decided that my life officially sucks A LOT. And I am going to do something about it. Thinking about going to meditation from now on... and continuing the search for a club to join. Maybe I'll see if Rebecca wants to go to Shabbatt w/ me on Friday. And also, I can't sleep. This is not going to work....

I seriously can't do anything work related right now. My eyes are killing me.. I just want to sit in front of a tv and zone out. I need love. My day has been pretty shitty... and the last 2 days have kind of become one. It's all a blur. I wish that life could be paused for about a month. I need a break. I'm exhausted, yet I know I'll ( Read more... )

I've been trying to sleep for the last 2 hours... and as you can see, I am having trouble. I'm mentally exhausted, yet I can't stop thinking. I'm nervous for an exam I have on thursday, and I haven't even begun to study. I did horribly on the first exam, and I can't help but feel like this one will turn out the same way. Besides that I know I ( Read more... )