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[culoslap]

I don't know where else I can go to get this out. My problems are nothing compared to what some of you all are dealing with. They're not even really problems but it's the compounded and bottled experiences that hurt me nonetheless. I used to be more active in this community many years ago and have been pulled in this direction when something hurt

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[stellardebris]

Jesus, this is a real problem, don't undermine yourself. Your entry actually brought tears to my eyes, thinking about some of my own issues (I know, selfish, but I'm human, so...). You write beautifully. I won't offer you any platitudes. I'll just keep my hopes for your success to myself. I hope we can be friends. xo -jaime

[culoslap]

Hey thanks for the kind words. I feel a little better today. I'm trying not to think of all we shared in that brief time. I'm basically at the stage where I can't really stomach trying to go on any more dates. Perhaps I shouldn't. Another rejection for a second date feels like a long-term relationship ended. I don't think that's healthy. In the past ten years I've only been in a relationship for seven months. I'm just not conditioned to coming this close and failing again