I'll listen to my own advice...

[deprivedxchild]

A few days back I sat by myself after minutes of thought. You are all I have ever known and I cannot know if this is love until I have known something else. I don't want to determine my life over something so uncertain. Perhaps in the end I will regret my decision to move on but I also feel like I would regret remaining where I am

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Stay pure, Dina.

[unicorn_power]

You are doing the right thing by letting time control things right now. You need time. You both do. And things will get better. You will be happy again, be able to breathe, and you'll be able to open your heart again. Everyday will get a little easier. I am really unsure about love, just because I don't know when it's true or not, since at times it seems like it is, but sometimes it ends. But I do know that true love should be accompanied by happiness, not pain. I guess what I am trying to say is that there is so much more out there in the world, so so so much more, and not to dwell on the sad things (even though it's extremely hard not to -- I've been there, too, and it's pretty terrible) because you'll miss out on great opportunities. Great laughs. Great people. People who would never dream of doing this to you. There are some really good hearts out there, Dina, just like yours, and I know you'll find one eventually. You just need time until then. This is an experience, a very bumpy one, and it will give you so many

Re: Stay pure, Dina.

[deprivedxchild]

thanks jaimeeeh. I needed to hear that. I was in a bad place today. I feel like ive finally made a tough decision but I know me and him. we will make it through. we always do. Im ready for what life is going to dish out.

im glad life brought me you too :)

At the risk of taking sides...

[sacred_pho3nix]

I'm glad you made a decision and went with it. The indecision was tearing you both apart, as you clearly know. You sound like your well on your way to truly accepting your decision..

I watched Moulin Rouge the other day, and it sounds like you need to too. You'll restore you faith in love once again. It's there for you. The pain subsides, and will become something to look back on as a stepping stone to the more self-aware person you've become.

so again, at the risk of taking sides... I'm proud of you :)

[sacred_pho3nix]

oh, and you think my opener was a movie line?!?!

I'm pretty sure "I cannot know if this is love until I have known something else" is pretty damn close to something I've heard before

:P that's all

[deprivedxchild]

yeah it is kind of movie inspired huh? I made a decsion tho. I finally have decided this is best. We talked today and I feel like things will be fine...its time to see what is new and wipe these damn tears off my face :)

Thank you for all your talks in school and your support. Thanks for being there and lending some comforting words when I need them the most.

<3 Dina

[sacred_pho3nix]

my pleasure... harsh realities seem to be my specialty :)

[sacred_pho3nix]

if i can make a plug... :D

my post/blog, could relate to yours... :P

im just sayinnnnn

[xdarkdestinyx]

There is always something more if you can only open your eyes to see. The process is slow and at times painful, but always always remember, you're not alone. Love for everyone is different, and to say what true love is, is something that can't be explained so easily in words.

The search of love isn't what makes the heart unbearable for an never-ending love. However, it's when your heart feels most at peace to be able to embrace the storming emotions. You won't easily just be ok, but you will be.

Everything is always fine in the end. If it isn't, then it's not the end yet.