Today.
You know, reading my last entry, I was quite proud of my analysis of baseball. I thought it rather witty and humourous. Of course, I thought the rest was pure crap, but then, that's just me. Today. Ugh. Today. I went to get some more job applications. One place didn't have any, another is a place I really don't want to work at, but I may not have a choice. Then there was the one where the lady sounded interested but she wanted a resume', which I didn't (and still don't) have. I was going to have my father help me throw one together tonight, but it didn't happen. Hopefully tomorrow. I really wish I could hear something back about the carpenter job. That would make my week. hell, that would make my month. I hate living off of my parents like this, but I don't really have a choice now. Too many mistakes in judgement have led me to this point, and now I have to live with the consequences. Wish I could've changed a few things back in the day, but if I did, if things were different in the way I want them to be, I know that I wouldn't be living here now. So maybe it's a blessing in disguise. I did miss my family so much. I just wish I wasn't such a leech. They keep telling me they want me to go and get a job so that I can get out of the house and meet people and make new friends. That would be nice. I just don't think I could be a very good friend to anyone right now. I'm so confused about everything. Oh well, on to another topic.
I had a thought today. A thought about christianity. Not common those thoughts, but something got me to thinking. In christian (lore, mythology, whatever) you have these two dominant figures, Jesus and the Devil. I wonder if the reasoning behind those two characters isn't a way to show man's resentment against god? (Just so you know, I'm speaking of all of this in a rather detached sense as I would consider myself a christian about as much as I would consider water to be dry, as in not very bloody likely.)
Okay, two figures, the devil and jesus. The devil is this fallen angel, cast out of heaven. Then you have jesus, conceived by immaculate means, as the son of a carpenter. If the bible is fiction, or something reflecting mans thoughts about their "creator", why side with the lowly son of a carpenter over the most incredible of beings, i.e. and angel? Was jesus taking the high road a sign of how much man despised god? Stay with me here. In the bible, it is believed that jesus supposedly prevailed over this devil character in some form or another. Why? The devil, even being a "fallen" angel, was still an angel. Does that not hold more sway than an angelic being? Is not angel a word that is often used to describe only the most beautiful of things?
This is my theory, and it's very open to comment, so feel free to shoot me down. Man, in creating this "bible" showed their despise for god by siding with jesus, a man. Not the angel, not the perfect creation of the divine being, but a man, and a lowly one at that. A carpenter. The narrative takes the side of a man. A man. Is this a way of saying "Listen, you made this great and wonderful being that is fantastic in so many senses, but we triumphed. We prevailed in a simple man. Your divine power is nothing as we won against your creation." The irony, is that if all of this is true, this whole bible business, then man didn't win. As supposed creations of god, it was his will that we win against another of his creations. Okay, so that is my theory on that, but now, I'm going to go deeper.
Man, a god-made thing, triumphs over satan, a god-made thing. Why? Why was there confrontation in the first place? You're a perfect being, capable of no wrong, and you make two things that are to be your ultimate creations. If you're perfect, it logically follows your creations would be perfect, no? So if you have two perfect things, how can one succeed over the other? A dilemma. Unstoppable force, immovable object. Certainly makes me wonder about who the bloody hell set all this up in the first place.
Moving on, Adam and Eve is a crock of shit. Because, I'm sorry, but you make these two people out of nothing, save some thought for one and a rib for the other, and then poof, they're there, then you're like "Hey, do what you want, but don't touch that thing over there. Don't eat it or you'll be smacked." Okay. That's real brilliant there. When you have a newborn puppy, do you set it in the house, tell it not to go poo on the carpet, then leave and when you return freak out when it pooed on the carpet and kick it to the curb? No. These poor people had no idea what it would mean to disobey, they had no training, nothing to base anything on. All they knew was that here they were, in the middle of paradise, without any explanation, and then told not to poo on the damn rug. Doesn't add up. I seriously think that if christians have got it right, we're in for a load of trouble. That kind of mentality running things? Trouble.
And then there's all this business about the damn apple. An apple! Who the hell gets kicked out over an apple? Not paying the rent, okay, mucking up the place, fine, but eating a damn apple? And then everyone tries to blame it on poor Eve. Didn't know what she was getting herself into. I'm not real familiar with the entirety of the story, but didn't the devil tell her to eat that? Just what the hell is a snake that's really the devil doing in paradise? You'd think that would be right out, wouldn't you? I mean it only makes sense if you have "paradise" you can walk around nude without worrying something is going to jump out of the bushes and bite you in your naughty bits, right? Just all silly buggers, the whole bit. And what does Adam say about the whole thing? "She gave of me to eat." Bloody right she did. She was only this absolute prefect women, so how the hell is he going to say no? Christ, I have a hard time saying no to girls I find even moderately attractive, and she was supposed to be perfect. No chance there. Men are ruled by two things, our stomachs, and something just a bit south of there. Food + Hot "Perfect" Woman... Hmmm... Makes you think.