Comments | derz714: i'll go anywhere.. so i'll see you there..

derz714

i'll go anywhere.. so i'll see you there..

Apr 18, 2005 18:49

yeah just got back from hanging out with krissi. i got to her house around 1. we picked out her clothes as me and meagan sang mcr in the kitchen. meagan wanted to stay home so me and krissi headed for downtown. we saw amy outside playing hockey. then mr. a drove by and waved. then we saw jake in his car.. also waving. tyler called my cell to say he ( Read more... )

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DERZ!!! crashing_down82 April 19 2005, 01:15:28 UTC

i love you amanda!!! and you most deffinetly do act like your my big sister like the sister i never had and that ive always wanted and i'm gonna miss you if/when you leave cause when youre here i know i can always tak to you for help on someting you help me thru a lot and it is gonna be hard to see you leave but i hope that when you visit we can hang and do stuff and just talk about whatevers going on well as for now just keep doing what you think is best and what you think you should do. I LOOK UP TO YOU!! only because.. I LOVE YOU!!! lol
~sally

Re: DERZ!!! derz714 April 19 2005, 01:26:14 UTC

OF COURSE we can hang out when i visit! kid you crazy! lol. i love you kiddo. this is wicked hard for me and it's gonna be so fucking hard to leave you here and keep in touch! i've always wanted a sister and krissi has always been my little sis and you will always be concidered as my baby sis. the toughest years are coming soon for you and it's gonna be such a bitch! but i'm still gonna be here for you no matter what .. call me ANYTIME!! for anything.. even if it's to say something sill like "YAAAAAAY!! APPLE PIE!!" or something.. you get what i'm saying here. lol. right now.. i'm torn between what is really best for me. everyone else's emotions and well-being are my biggest concern. everytime we have together is an awsome time.. don't ever forget that.. there will never be a moment about our memories that won't put a smile on your face. all you gotta do is look in your heart and GUESS WHAT!!.. i'll be there for you. lol. word.

Re: DERZ!!! crashing_down82 April 19 2005, 01:28:39 UTC

lol appple pie lmao lol yeah good times like sunday getting married then running off lmao haha yeah we have a lot of those just cant think right now im tirrrred lol

Re: DERZ!!! derz714 April 19 2005, 01:30:09 UTC

"NO I WANNA RUN FIRST!.. YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME AT THE ALTAR!! HEY// HEY!! GET BACK HERE!!! *chases*" .. yessss.. good times! lol. we have good memories.. lol.

thats so effing long! kahula511 April 19 2005, 01:29:25 UTC

wow 2 entries in 1 day?! im impressed. k anyway you really wanna know where im going after high school? COLLEGE! im going to college .. either in nyc, ri, or nh. haven't decide what i want to major and/or minor in yet though so we'll see where i end up.

<3 Kristen xoxo

Re: thats so effing long! derz714 April 19 2005, 01:33:32 UTC

hehe yaaay you're impressed!! and yes i know you are going to college.. and i think you should go to new york.. well it also depends on what you end up majoring in.. but still... you should go to myc... can you say party?! PAAAAAARTAAAAAAAY!! ri.. yeah we have good colleges.. but it'll be so hard for you to leave here if you go to colege in ri.. that is if you wanna end up going somewhere other than here.. and nh is wicked gorgeous...boston is awsome too.. nyc is a good experience for you not only for college but the city life too.. but hey it's whatever you wanna do..

Re: thats so effing long! kahula511 April 19 2005, 01:39:10 UTC

lol and it all depends on what the hell i want to major in. i do when i want to get out of RI but at the same time i don't because like you, i'm so effing close with my dad. we look exactly alike ( except i'm a girl ), we talk alike, we act alike, i am so the BIGGEST daddy's girl there is and i effing love it.

Re: thats so effing long! derz714 April 19 2005, 01:43:57 UTC

yeah it's wicked hard when one part of who wants to get out of here and persue a different and new life but then the other part of you is heartbroken to even think about leaving your loved ones and starting a life of your own.. i love my daddy and i hate to think of leaving him especially when we're close. but sometimes it's like.. you gotta move on and do what's best for you and be someone and do something with your life. 'cause we can't have daddy be responsible for us all our lives.. we can still go out and take control of ourselves and still be daddy's little girls.. it's just so hard to do so without having daddy there all the time and doing everything for us.

pish posh tragic_emotion April 19 2005, 13:55:36 UTC

so, I can't go to California with you? Yeah, yeah, yeah don't try to explain. Lol. Jk. And don't think it is weird that you are so...narrowed down on your choices for college. I mean you are talking to a girl that knows her major, minor, city. I know like everything I want except for the exact college man! Or...WO-man. Lol. But if you don't know what you want then no one else will so it is good that you are thinking about that kind of stuff. And try not to worry so much about the emotions of others. This is your life, your future and friend wise- we are all going different places and sure our friendships will change but they will never fall apart if we dont let them. And family wise, the same things go. When you are away from everything, you choose who you wanna talk to, who you wanna stay close to. So the choice is bascially up to you.

And don't worry, the Musketeers will live on FOREVER! (woah, I kinda feel like I am in a movie like Troy. All fighting and bloody and gross. Eww. But still, kinda cool)

*Bacon

Re: pish posh derz714 April 19 2005, 14:15:09 UTC

i don't think it's weird that i purpossly have so little choices because i've always wanted my life in california and i know my major.. film/directing .. but i'm thinking of also majoring in music if not then that was minor anyways. i really wanna find an awsome college so i'm not like some ho-bag asking for money 3 times a week and what not. key to the friend thing "if we don't let them" and i know we won't but you're right things CHANGE.. i fucking hate change.. always have and always will but everyone has to fucking deal with it.. ugh.. PAIN in my ASS. see you're going off to boston.. and iono either new york or boston i'm going to colege.. or going straight to cali. i can't help but worry about everyone else's emotions. soon enough that's gonna be on everyone's mind once the time comes and we all go our seperate ways. we just should all stay close to ecah other.. which most likly won't happen 'cause we all have different dreams and intend on going to different places. it's not like we're going to the same school in the same town ( ... )

Re: pish posh tragic_emotion April 19 2005, 14:23:28 UTC

I know it seems hard and it is. But my cousin Douglas does it just fine. If him, Nick, Kevin and Zach can do it, there is not one doubt in my mind that we can't.

And I know you don't like change. I think it is that motherly instinct you have. Like how at FJM "I was calling to check up on you. You know, see how your first night was and everything" and then I call you back "Ok, Mom." Lol. But things are bound to change. Just don't let everything become memories. And I know a phone call or an email may seem trivial but if that is what it takes to stay close, that is what it takes and that is what we are gonna hafta do.

I know that I won't let our friendship fall apart. How could I live with out my best friend, sister, doctor derz, mom...the list continues. I wuv you!

*

Re: pish posh derz714 April 19 2005, 14:35:13 UTC

wolk has a hard time just emailing people to keep in touch and she lives in mass as we live here in rhodey.. and she has even quit her job and she still has a major difficult time keeping in touch. i don't want what's happening with me and wolk to happen to us. now that kevin's back in school and works at the community center and topside.. he hasn't even been online, etc etc etc. he's either working or in school.. he does have free time but that's when we're in school. i don't want what's happening to me and kevin to happen to us either. when we go off to college we'll be juggling college and jobs. it's gonna be a bitch. i can't wait 'til this summer to reunite with kevin. and wolk better visit.. she said she would like after feb vaca.. and she didn't..have gotten a few emails.. but she hasn't visited yet and i know it's hard for her.. but she now has the time to do so. kevin just likes playing with swords. and of course we won't let our friendship fall apart.. haha.. the famous doctor derz lol.

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Rough anonymous April 19 2005, 23:22:48 UTC

sorry things aint going ur way

Re: Rough derz714 April 20 2005, 01:33:11 UTC

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