Love or affection?
This question is often present in my mind. Do I want someone to love and have love me? or do I simply search for a constant souce of affection? Often I see people "in love" together, they seem to smile and hug and kiss and hold eachother, yet when they're apart it seems that the one has more things bad than good to say about the other. This is hypocracy on a whole new level, because it involes not only lies but fake emotion. A human being is made up of 2 things, a mind and a body, and a large part of the mind is emotional and irrational, which is the larger part of how love is described. Yet when the mind irrationally feels emotions for someone it is automatically love? How is it that one can love a person while dating and then the day after a break up hate them? Hate must disguise itself as love in order to express it's true self more vividly to the beholder. There can't be another explination. Sometimes when I'm with a certain group of people I'm drawn to a particular one, what I feel is an emotional attraction. Is this because there is something that truly separates her from the others, do I love her? Or because I know she might satisfy my desire for physical attention, even to the smallest degree? I'm not one for one-night stands or cheap meaningless sex, and I find there are better parts to a relationship than sex, but a non-physical relationship is no relationship at all, and I say this as someone who has put heart and soul into failed long-distance relationship in the past. To all those of you who are reading this and are involved in a long distance relationship, do not reply to me telling me that it can work, or that you are in love. Deep down neither of you wholly trusts the other, there are always insecurities, and wether you act on your desires for others around you or not they are still there and put strain on the relationship. It needs to be said and I am giong to say it, Long-distance relationships do not work, never have and never will they, so if you are in one, save yourself the time and pain and just admit this to yourself now. Don't cling on to some shred of hope and the still red cinders of what once was a burning love. I know, I've been there and done it. Succeed where I failed and end it with some dignity and happiness! (I would like to add that her and I are still friends, and I still hold her dearly as that. There is no ill will from me to her, and if she's reading this then I hope she knows that. And I hope she stops apologizing for something thats not her fault!)