you can fill me up with what you got, because my heart is meant to keep it cold..
nothing has been edited or even read over
bare with me
i attempted to select a current mood of the multiple choices, but how is one
even able to confine an entry to one mood, if that is the primary intention
i would not be able to place a single mood on what i am feeling as of now
disappointment, mortification, the list may continue, and that has not even
made note of the better of feelings
confusion would best summarize, but lacks zest
come tomorrow..
no, not to bother with it
forget it please
twelve noon, high noon in the westerns
power regained above time today
complain of the hurricane
that is what they are best at
why change it now, continue on continue on
i can show you something good that came of it
but jonathon and jordan
they must have seen something
detected, deciphered something of the sorts
gladly did, thanks out to the both of you
though when the closure is near, i will think low of it
that is what it lead up to
two minutes and fifty two seconds of forgiveness
that should not have been forgiven
the friends are always better
never have i been in a situation where they do not exceed the first and
foremost guy
i can learn to forgive
i promise
but you don't make promises
forgive me father, for i have sinned
snapshot post for the next update, i can promise you that
have not gotten around to uploading
or calling back, for that matter
don't get me wrong, i would of liked to have called
even greater, would have liked to receive that call
enough is enough
story time boys and girls
gather close, mashmellows in hand
where to begin, well the hurricane of course
i met someone
no, no cannot jump to the climax
work up the anticipation
setting, mid-morning friday
already heavy rains
parents were convinced that we would be blown away
how could that happen
refuge, take cover
brilliant idea, worthy of those six feet under
but another challenge we have come to face
to bring with us, what minimal baggage can be brought along
money, currency of course
beginning thought
reach into the wallet, brushing against a string of pearls
pearls, genious, pearl from spain
that will have to come along
and what to wear
i was adorned in pajamas nonetheless
my favorite jeans
yes, yes all time preference
makeup? oh no time for that
i am being rushed out the door
barely time to grab hold of a pillow
destination of selection
alva elementary
east of all that is to happen
and what a choice it was
ever want the hook up
call in the weatherman and arrange a hurricane
something is bound to occur
took a while for instinct to kick in
but approached as i was
conversation held
eyes locked
and the sky light up green
magnificent for a moment
pitch black the following
power line was struck by lightning
oh yea
back to the hurricane
i was outside the entire time
covered by an alcove, of course
alongside my newly met friend
rough on the edges
who can resist
questioning my age
should i say that i am older
have before, not like i plan to spend any time with this person
no no, you lie too often
conscious kicks in
fifteen as displayed
really, when is your birthday
ahh well, i just turned fifteen
fourth of may
you have GOT to be kidding me
hey dad, when is my birthday
may fourth nineteen eighty eight, chris, forget in your old age
jaw dropped
heart beat kicks in
that is exactly a year to mine
all ripped away the next heartbeat
time to go back home
and we had not even exchange phone numbers
ahh, hell
who knows what could have come of it
well i do
last moment possible
and the smallest piece of paper is slipped into my back pockect
and i will not be going into the quest afterwards
the all focused yet obsessive act i was in
looking for this slip of paper
happened to be in the truck on the car
flashlights i am equipped with
and i found it
chris thorsen
number scribbled beneath
call, yes
answer, no
chris is at a friends house
later do i find out that he NEVER goes home
and doesn’t tell you when he is coming over
alright, fast forward several days, to the following thursday
we had already seen each other several times before
but on this day i am in my brothers room
of all things reading
apparel? i would rather not delve into it
but is that not what makes the story an interesting one
first you must know there is no air conditioning
and i had not yet taken a shower that day
hair thrown up in a pony tail
glasses rather than contacts
bikini all that i am wearing at the time
shit, how can i answer the door looking like this
window to my brothers room peering out to the front door
omg, he cannot scan to his right
scrambling to the floor is when his eyes meet mine
suave way to let him see you
and why the hell is he here anyways
yes, i did want him there
and it was for the better
but why this early in the morning
must have been ten o'clock
and he was outside my door
walking to the door, thought i should pull it off the best i could
work the bikini, darling
day went well
ten o'clock am to eleven o'clock pm
and this is a story in the making
thorsen, every now and again
and for tonight
leave a message
but i sure as hell wont be responding
i wanted to watch a decent movie
perhaps one of those foreign films that Stars Cinema has ever so enticed me with, Swimming Pool was watched several weeks ago, it is quite possible that the theme for the time being has changed, and other movies have been playing
but you would you there would be at least one half-decent film
you would think
so you tell me i speak in riddle
not the first to conclude that
and certainly not the last
bare with me
i attempted to select a current mood of the multiple choices, but how is one
even able to confine an entry to one mood, if that is the primary intention
i would not be able to place a single mood on what i am feeling as of now
disappointment, mortification, the list may continue, and that has not even
made note of the better of feelings
confusion would best summarize, but lacks zest
come tomorrow..
no, not to bother with it
forget it please
twelve noon, high noon in the westerns
power regained above time today
complain of the hurricane
that is what they are best at
why change it now, continue on continue on
i can show you something good that came of it
but jonathon and jordan
they must have seen something
detected, deciphered something of the sorts
gladly did, thanks out to the both of you
though when the closure is near, i will think low of it
that is what it lead up to
two minutes and fifty two seconds of forgiveness
that should not have been forgiven
the friends are always better
never have i been in a situation where they do not exceed the first and
foremost guy
i can learn to forgive
i promise
but you don't make promises
forgive me father, for i have sinned
snapshot post for the next update, i can promise you that
have not gotten around to uploading
or calling back, for that matter
don't get me wrong, i would of liked to have called
even greater, would have liked to receive that call
enough is enough
story time boys and girls
gather close, mashmellows in hand
where to begin, well the hurricane of course
i met someone
no, no cannot jump to the climax
work up the anticipation
setting, mid-morning friday
already heavy rains
parents were convinced that we would be blown away
how could that happen
refuge, take cover
brilliant idea, worthy of those six feet under
but another challenge we have come to face
to bring with us, what minimal baggage can be brought along
money, currency of course
beginning thought
reach into the wallet, brushing against a string of pearls
pearls, genious, pearl from spain
that will have to come along
and what to wear
i was adorned in pajamas nonetheless
my favorite jeans
yes, yes all time preference
makeup? oh no time for that
i am being rushed out the door
barely time to grab hold of a pillow
destination of selection
alva elementary
east of all that is to happen
and what a choice it was
ever want the hook up
call in the weatherman and arrange a hurricane
something is bound to occur
took a while for instinct to kick in
but approached as i was
conversation held
eyes locked
and the sky light up green
magnificent for a moment
pitch black the following
power line was struck by lightning
oh yea
back to the hurricane
i was outside the entire time
covered by an alcove, of course
alongside my newly met friend
rough on the edges
who can resist
questioning my age
should i say that i am older
have before, not like i plan to spend any time with this person
no no, you lie too often
conscious kicks in
fifteen as displayed
really, when is your birthday
ahh well, i just turned fifteen
fourth of may
you have GOT to be kidding me
hey dad, when is my birthday
may fourth nineteen eighty eight, chris, forget in your old age
jaw dropped
heart beat kicks in
that is exactly a year to mine
all ripped away the next heartbeat
time to go back home
and we had not even exchange phone numbers
ahh, hell
who knows what could have come of it
well i do
last moment possible
and the smallest piece of paper is slipped into my back pockect
and i will not be going into the quest afterwards
the all focused yet obsessive act i was in
looking for this slip of paper
happened to be in the truck on the car
flashlights i am equipped with
and i found it
chris thorsen
number scribbled beneath
call, yes
answer, no
chris is at a friends house
later do i find out that he NEVER goes home
and doesn’t tell you when he is coming over
alright, fast forward several days, to the following thursday
we had already seen each other several times before
but on this day i am in my brothers room
of all things reading
apparel? i would rather not delve into it
but is that not what makes the story an interesting one
first you must know there is no air conditioning
and i had not yet taken a shower that day
hair thrown up in a pony tail
glasses rather than contacts
bikini all that i am wearing at the time
shit, how can i answer the door looking like this
window to my brothers room peering out to the front door
omg, he cannot scan to his right
scrambling to the floor is when his eyes meet mine
suave way to let him see you
and why the hell is he here anyways
yes, i did want him there
and it was for the better
but why this early in the morning
must have been ten o'clock
and he was outside my door
walking to the door, thought i should pull it off the best i could
work the bikini, darling
day went well
ten o'clock am to eleven o'clock pm
and this is a story in the making
thorsen, every now and again
and for tonight
leave a message
but i sure as hell wont be responding
i wanted to watch a decent movie
perhaps one of those foreign films that Stars Cinema has ever so enticed me with, Swimming Pool was watched several weeks ago, it is quite possible that the theme for the time being has changed, and other movies have been playing
but you would you there would be at least one half-decent film
you would think
so you tell me i speak in riddle
not the first to conclude that
and certainly not the last