Comments | desireemiote: continued worry of spontaneous combustion or just going insane....

desireemiote

continued worry of spontaneous combustion or just going insane....

Dec 25, 2008 00:54

Frustrated... pissed of... feeling like I need to move but not wanting to... I'm wide awake! I am at my parents house and the kids opened their presents today ( Read more... )

list of needs, to do list, anxiety issues, i need help, xmas eve 2008, spontaneous combustion

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colbyucb December 25 2008, 07:14:14 UTC

I read it...

:DDDDDDD desireemiote December 26 2008, 05:45:40 UTC

OMG you have no idea how happy you made me:)=)=^.^=!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok I know you have commented before but I just thought it was random... I didn't think you were really truly reading all the time. I miss having friends and being a smart person and a writer. I miss feeling intelligent. And this is my only writing outlet so it makes me feel useless intelligence wise when I think nobody cares about my writing. Especially because this writing is me. Hubby won't read it because he thinks every entry is just bitching about him but maybe I can convince him if he thinks it will help me be less depressed... crap! I said it again... I don't like it but... I guess I am depressed again... But at the moment I'm happy because I feel like somebody really cares about me... I know it's weird but you reading my journal makes me feel like you really care about me... the real nitty gritty true to myself honest complaining base of me. Nobody else will take the time to read my writing so just know that I love you for being different and making me feel

Re: :DDDDDDD colbyucb December 27 2008, 05:39:28 UTC

I read every entry on my friends page (well excluding some communities when they're super-active) but personal journals, I read them all. I often don't feel I have anything to offer when commenting, though.

That sucks about your husband not wanting to read your writing... my exes all read my LJ, but then again my own journal is mostly random bitching or fandom stuff that's not very important... I can sympathize in that several of my exes had no interest in my creative writing and it was quite painful to know that they didn't want to read my stories.

This might sound creepy but the way I operate is that I often stick to sidelines, reading people's journals, and I feel I get to know them but of course if I don't interact with them, they won't know me... I'm trying to get better about that. At any rate I just want to say that reading your journal makes me feel like I kind of know you, and I do care about you, as much as an internet friend can I suppose.

Re: :DDDDDDD desireemiote December 27 2008, 07:22:45 UTC

I do the same thing... I mean look I really have no friends but I feel so close to you because we seem to have a lot in common and I feel bad that I don't always read your lj but thats because I need to clean my friends page of people I don't talk to anymore... I'm trying to move on and cleaning my friends page of ex friends and such should help. I started reading your lj more recently and I like it even though it mainly random stuff. I once had a friend who was very random in her journal and it made her very poetic and intelligent to me. Made me wish I could be the same way. But at the same time knowing her in person I knew that I didn't want to have her life or her attitude. I try to keep my journal true to myself because I want to actually be able to print my journal and back it up and be able to look back on it for years to come. It is my only way to remember the many details that so easily slip from my mind... I wish I had a better memory but I recognize that I don't and I do what I can to keep it from being a problem. I tend to ( ... )

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long time no word desireemiote January 1 2009, 06:25:10 UTC

i thought you forgot about lj lol... well really i thought you were mad at me for not calling... i've barely talked to anyone on the phone for quite a while. Well aside from my family that is. Sorry I haven't been calling you. My train of thought is so easily derailed and I always worry about calling people at the wrong time or feeling stupid when it has been so long since I called and I just suddenly call out of nowhere with no good reason for not having called before... I will call you soon... I have lots to talk about but I can also just listen if you need me too... human interaction even on the phone is always nice... when it's just family i feel desperate because i call them sooo much but they can also be frustrating to talk to too... they don't seem to be able to just be happy for me... ever!! erg... so yeah I will call you soon and hopefully it will be a good time but if not I'll keep trying. Again sorry for not calling before... i won't make any excuses I should have called and got wrapped up in other things that didn't really ( ... )