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So, This is Me that has been in hiding
I hide. Fairly often. I used to care about what other people would think if they knew the real me. I miss talking to a few of my friend that I could be the real me. Like Andrew. But, I realize in the long run he doesn't have time for a lonely girl from Glasgow. I just deal. Go on like everything is cool. But, I do miss coming home and finding his ( Read more... ) -
Finding My Way
I'm so...tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of the constant pressure. Tired of...my life. I want to go somewhere else, break free, laugh way too loud and not care. Make-out in the rain, find someone who loves me for I am, not what they can get from me. Find someone who is true to theirself. Date who I want, not who I can get. Make my life so much ( Read more... ) -
Life
Weird how I just randomly bounce around between all these journals that I have online. If I compiled all the entries together in one, you'd probably get a more accurate description of my personality, but I'm not worried. Who cares, it's just you people reading this.Well things have changed around and changed back and then shifted since I last ( Read more... ) -
Reversal of Luck
It seems like everything that has been going downhill from this point on are on the upward trend. For about, a year or 2. I stopped counting. It seemed that everything was going suck. I broke up with my first love was the beginning of a very downward trend. My grades were slipping. Band sucked. I was beginning to crack under the pressure of ( Read more... ) -
Andrew
I'm really worried about Andrew. He hasn't emailed me in a month. I called him the Friday before the David Crowder and only got to talk to him for, like, 10 minutes. He hasn't been on MSN, AOL, or LJ. It's like, he's fell off the face of the Earth. I really miss talking to him. He was my one main hope I had in the world for the men. And he's just ( Read more... ) -
Life
Life has a weird way of changing all of a sudden on you, doesn't it? Tonight, we had open house and an academic team match. I stayed after school because there was no point in coming home to have to go back for an hour. So, it's me and Justin baby sitting a bunch of freshmen. We get the stuff set up and crap, but anyway,so we lose all the matches ( Read more... ) -
Today
Today, I just feel ugly and alienated. The life I choose for myself is starting to overwhelm me. I'm tired of feeling like I'm always alone. And I'm tired of people telling me that I'm not. I've felt alone for the past 2 or 3 months. It's like public solitude, which we studied in A&H. To be alone in a crowd. Why do I have to be alone? Why won't ( Read more... ) -
School Stuff
Well, just got the schedule and we already had to change it. It was going to be impossible for me to take AP US History and Honors English,so my mom went and saw Mrs. Seibold, my couselor, and she changed it where I could take AP and Honors English in with a regular English class. Which will be interesting. Also, I had her fun my transcript so I ( Read more... ) -
Whew.
Man I've been busy.Let's see...been at Band since Monday. Had the block party last night. Managed to hurt my foot and ended up going to the ER to make sure I didn't have any glass in it. I got put on crutches...didn't get out of the ER until 2. Went home and to sleep. Got up at 6and had to go to band. Sat at band and was immensely bored...lol. ( Read more... )