* Drowning in my sleep... *
I figured I couldn't stay away for too long hahaha shows how much will power I got... but it seems no one missed me... haha figures.
Well what's been happening with me you ask?? not much really...
Went to Warped Tour this past Saturday... 5th year in a row... drove up there with Erica and Leslie... I swear I've never seen Warped Tour that packed ever, it was disgusting... Bands I saw all and/or some of... Rufio, Matchbook Romance (who blew fucking ass...), Silverstein, Boysnightout, Sugarcult, The Bouncing Souls, The International Noise Conspiracy, Alexisonfire (for like the 5824052408 time...) Leslie wanted to see em, I couldn't have bothered with Alexis since yeah I've seen them so many times and I'm kinda getting sick of em, even though they are good live but yeah I mean their new cd is good... BUT NOT THAT GOOD, I've heard better...
and the bands that blew me away that day: Waking Ashland, Fall Out Boy, and Underoath.... I also got to meet Taking Back Sunday (again) and Fall Out Boy.. that made me like hot in the pants! and this year I only spent 60 bucks.... as opposed to the 250 last year... but that's cause I blew 300 American at Hellfest.
I wish I could've seen all of Sugarcult grrr... and Avengend Sevenfold, Thursday, Coheed & Chambria, TBS, From First To Last... but yeah for whatever reasons I didn't get to see all of em...
Underoath were phenominal, less violent and more tamed than Hellfest, I was in the pit alongside my ex's best friend... ahha that was quite interesting, at least she doesn't hate me, but my ex still does hahaha.... They played the same songs they did at Hellfest minus one... Spencer kept grabbing my hand to hold him up.. it was hot... and I have no idea how he screams like that, cuz after that I had no voice, but I did get to scream in the mic enough times... I had to sacrifice Taking Back Sunday for Fall Out Boy.. and it was worth it... sadly FOB don't have a huge following up here in Canada like down south.. but Fall Out Boy were just phenominal and an awesome live band.. Those 2 bands made my day, in which most of the day was just bullshit.... you want real pop punk, not like New Found Glory cuz they're becoming really overrated now... listen to Fall Out Boy.. cuz they're for lovers.. and will own your fucking ass like they're your fucking bitch!!
Who see's 3 ex girlfriends at Warped??! Me... ughhhh hahaha... that was gay... but meh... I don't feel there's any need to go into specific detail about the rest of the day since Warped isin't that great... It's just not the way it used to be... I dunno, maybe I'm just getting too old for this shit haha...
But yeah Warped tour just kinda bored me, maybe just cuz I knew it would not live up to be Hellfest... I mean I got to spend the day with Erica and Leslie... and they made it all the more better.. thanks ladies... <33333
So yeah other than that I can't really say much... But I do feel like things are changing, and I can't tell if its for the best or for the worst, and feelings inside me yeah are getting all fucked up... and definitely over the past week or so, things have just been confusing the fuck out of me, and I'm starting to become something that I hate, as much as I would hate for that to happen, for some reason I couldn't really care anymore... Heh, it's sad... I don't feel the need for detail in this cuz this is something I would like to keep secret (as much as I've kept it secret until now)... But yeah... know that I'm not perfect... and this is definitely something that is not in my character... ughhh... I feel dirty, yet I couldn't care...
Anyways... other than that... nothing... Oh except I wanna beat the shit out of someone...
Just a certain elist fucker that likes to talk shit about me... and he doesn't even know me... Just because he dislikes the way I dress and the music I listen to... He says I'm a "try hard" scenester, who doesn't understand anything about hardcore and the message behind it... He says I'm just trying to fit the fashion, the hair, the glasses just for show... hahaha he says people like me ruined the hardcore scene.... ohhhh boo-fuckin-hoo... see if YOU'RE reading this (or I know there's ppl who are reading this and passing this along to him)... know one thing... I do know a lot of the bands you listen to and their message, and you know I respect that, I respect music that brings a positive message, and I listen to sXe bands and well I mean for me it's the music, I enjoy it, I mean the message is there but I can't be bothered so what's the deal??? I respect everyones passions and beliefs as long as they don't try throw it upon me...
But this little fucking douche has the audacity to pinpoint me as the epitome of what has ruined his "scene"... haha I'm flattered, really I am!!... and he should know that as much as he'll whine and bitch, it won't make a fucking difference, he's a part of the old school scene that's dying out now and he's just all pissed off about it... I mean hey I got into hardcore when it was all old school I was all into Earth Crisis, Refused, Hatebreed, Vision Of Disorder, Will Haven, Quicksand, etc... but it's just hardcore now seems to have fused fashion and all that into it its a progression... and he's just pissed off at all of this... he thinks bands like Norma Jean, Eighteen Visions, Thursday etc etc... are not hardcore and are all garbage.. to him they're not... but guess what dude hardcore can't sound all the same anymore, and it doesn't... I mean if bands all started sounding like Ignite, Bane, Comeback Kid, Hatebreed etc etc (which are all awesome bands) but I mean it's nice for bands to infuse different elements and still remain heavy... Sorry if this doesn't suit your fancy... either way music is music... Everyday music is changing and saving lives... I mean I would rather have a young 'un pick up something heavy rather than I don't know a 50 Cent cd... regardless if its Hatebreed, or if its Thursday...
But it just fucking pisses me off, this guy just doesn't like me because he doesn't like the way I dress and all this shit, and let alone I listen to a lot of shit he does... Personally I think he's fucking arrogant, and just a very bitter person... I'm surprised people like to talk to this fucker... I highly doubt he could even come to my face and say this shit... That's why I don't even bother going into HMV in the Bramalea City Center anymore cuz I know if I see him I'll fucking snap... But I really do want to though... I know nothing will change his little feeble arrogant mind but hey... I would just love to walk in there wearing my awesomely hot Eighteen Visions zip up... tap him on the shoulder and be like "hey Matt!" and just spit in his fucking face... If he wants to keep talking shit about me on the computer that's fine... I highly doubt he could tell me straight up in his face... I'm a lover not a fighter, but if times call for it, I will fucking throw down on his ass like an Unearth pit...
Sorry for all of this Erica... but hey you shouldn't have shown me all that shit he wrote about me... I don't even know why you still persist on talking to someone who talks trash to you and talks down on you like you were the scum of the earth, you don't deserve it... and that's what pisses me off as well... How dare he talk shit about one of my best friends...
I promise you if he talks anymore shit, I will fucking take care of him. You have my word.
Ahhhh that felt good to rant hahaha... anyways... I figured I might as well be a vain person and be all like "look at me I'm a cam whore" so here's a hot fashionxcore pic of me like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cuz yah know pink is hot shit... and check out my new hair... haha I love pissing off the elitist fucks... ;) but wait how could I be vain when I'm pretty ugly? anyways... this is me... fucken scenest little fucking bitch in Brampton, Ontario, Canada nigga! fashionxcore wut!?@ hahahahhaa ghsjfad;ghsa;jghsja...
Well what's been happening with me you ask?? not much really...
Went to Warped Tour this past Saturday... 5th year in a row... drove up there with Erica and Leslie... I swear I've never seen Warped Tour that packed ever, it was disgusting... Bands I saw all and/or some of... Rufio, Matchbook Romance (who blew fucking ass...), Silverstein, Boysnightout, Sugarcult, The Bouncing Souls, The International Noise Conspiracy, Alexisonfire (for like the 5824052408 time...) Leslie wanted to see em, I couldn't have bothered with Alexis since yeah I've seen them so many times and I'm kinda getting sick of em, even though they are good live but yeah I mean their new cd is good... BUT NOT THAT GOOD, I've heard better...
and the bands that blew me away that day: Waking Ashland, Fall Out Boy, and Underoath.... I also got to meet Taking Back Sunday (again) and Fall Out Boy.. that made me like hot in the pants! and this year I only spent 60 bucks.... as opposed to the 250 last year... but that's cause I blew 300 American at Hellfest.
I wish I could've seen all of Sugarcult grrr... and Avengend Sevenfold, Thursday, Coheed & Chambria, TBS, From First To Last... but yeah for whatever reasons I didn't get to see all of em...
Underoath were phenominal, less violent and more tamed than Hellfest, I was in the pit alongside my ex's best friend... ahha that was quite interesting, at least she doesn't hate me, but my ex still does hahaha.... They played the same songs they did at Hellfest minus one... Spencer kept grabbing my hand to hold him up.. it was hot... and I have no idea how he screams like that, cuz after that I had no voice, but I did get to scream in the mic enough times... I had to sacrifice Taking Back Sunday for Fall Out Boy.. and it was worth it... sadly FOB don't have a huge following up here in Canada like down south.. but Fall Out Boy were just phenominal and an awesome live band.. Those 2 bands made my day, in which most of the day was just bullshit.... you want real pop punk, not like New Found Glory cuz they're becoming really overrated now... listen to Fall Out Boy.. cuz they're for lovers.. and will own your fucking ass like they're your fucking bitch!!
Who see's 3 ex girlfriends at Warped??! Me... ughhhh hahaha... that was gay... but meh... I don't feel there's any need to go into specific detail about the rest of the day since Warped isin't that great... It's just not the way it used to be... I dunno, maybe I'm just getting too old for this shit haha...
But yeah Warped tour just kinda bored me, maybe just cuz I knew it would not live up to be Hellfest... I mean I got to spend the day with Erica and Leslie... and they made it all the more better.. thanks ladies... <33333
So yeah other than that I can't really say much... But I do feel like things are changing, and I can't tell if its for the best or for the worst, and feelings inside me yeah are getting all fucked up... and definitely over the past week or so, things have just been confusing the fuck out of me, and I'm starting to become something that I hate, as much as I would hate for that to happen, for some reason I couldn't really care anymore... Heh, it's sad... I don't feel the need for detail in this cuz this is something I would like to keep secret (as much as I've kept it secret until now)... But yeah... know that I'm not perfect... and this is definitely something that is not in my character... ughhh... I feel dirty, yet I couldn't care...
Anyways... other than that... nothing... Oh except I wanna beat the shit out of someone...
Just a certain elist fucker that likes to talk shit about me... and he doesn't even know me... Just because he dislikes the way I dress and the music I listen to... He says I'm a "try hard" scenester, who doesn't understand anything about hardcore and the message behind it... He says I'm just trying to fit the fashion, the hair, the glasses just for show... hahaha he says people like me ruined the hardcore scene.... ohhhh boo-fuckin-hoo... see if YOU'RE reading this (or I know there's ppl who are reading this and passing this along to him)... know one thing... I do know a lot of the bands you listen to and their message, and you know I respect that, I respect music that brings a positive message, and I listen to sXe bands and well I mean for me it's the music, I enjoy it, I mean the message is there but I can't be bothered so what's the deal??? I respect everyones passions and beliefs as long as they don't try throw it upon me...
But this little fucking douche has the audacity to pinpoint me as the epitome of what has ruined his "scene"... haha I'm flattered, really I am!!... and he should know that as much as he'll whine and bitch, it won't make a fucking difference, he's a part of the old school scene that's dying out now and he's just all pissed off about it... I mean hey I got into hardcore when it was all old school I was all into Earth Crisis, Refused, Hatebreed, Vision Of Disorder, Will Haven, Quicksand, etc... but it's just hardcore now seems to have fused fashion and all that into it its a progression... and he's just pissed off at all of this... he thinks bands like Norma Jean, Eighteen Visions, Thursday etc etc... are not hardcore and are all garbage.. to him they're not... but guess what dude hardcore can't sound all the same anymore, and it doesn't... I mean if bands all started sounding like Ignite, Bane, Comeback Kid, Hatebreed etc etc (which are all awesome bands) but I mean it's nice for bands to infuse different elements and still remain heavy... Sorry if this doesn't suit your fancy... either way music is music... Everyday music is changing and saving lives... I mean I would rather have a young 'un pick up something heavy rather than I don't know a 50 Cent cd... regardless if its Hatebreed, or if its Thursday...
But it just fucking pisses me off, this guy just doesn't like me because he doesn't like the way I dress and all this shit, and let alone I listen to a lot of shit he does... Personally I think he's fucking arrogant, and just a very bitter person... I'm surprised people like to talk to this fucker... I highly doubt he could even come to my face and say this shit... That's why I don't even bother going into HMV in the Bramalea City Center anymore cuz I know if I see him I'll fucking snap... But I really do want to though... I know nothing will change his little feeble arrogant mind but hey... I would just love to walk in there wearing my awesomely hot Eighteen Visions zip up... tap him on the shoulder and be like "hey Matt!" and just spit in his fucking face... If he wants to keep talking shit about me on the computer that's fine... I highly doubt he could tell me straight up in his face... I'm a lover not a fighter, but if times call for it, I will fucking throw down on his ass like an Unearth pit...
Sorry for all of this Erica... but hey you shouldn't have shown me all that shit he wrote about me... I don't even know why you still persist on talking to someone who talks trash to you and talks down on you like you were the scum of the earth, you don't deserve it... and that's what pisses me off as well... How dare he talk shit about one of my best friends...
I promise you if he talks anymore shit, I will fucking take care of him. You have my word.
Ahhhh that felt good to rant hahaha... anyways... I figured I might as well be a vain person and be all like "look at me I'm a cam whore" so here's a hot fashionxcore pic of me like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cuz yah know pink is hot shit... and check out my new hair... haha I love pissing off the elitist fucks... ;) but wait how could I be vain when I'm pretty ugly? anyways... this is me... fucken scenest little fucking bitch in Brampton, Ontario, Canada nigga! fashionxcore wut!?@ hahahahhaa ghsjfad;ghsa;jghsja...