i miss those whom i haven't seen in a while.
mostly because i have been a phantom, i'll admit
i'm not the easiest to get a hold of latley.
but to justine and shannon, i adore you both
and i miss being around you guys.

on another note, i'm tired of being proud.

i will embrace every moment of this as if i will never
feel it again.
memories i want to memorize. with you.

i roll the constellations like dice, and it produced the most unsatiable kiss ever.

extremely good day.
filled with good conversation/company/smoking/laughs/rocks/sunset/african tribal drums/boba (whatever that is)

my faith in people is slowly starting to become stronger.

things are starting to surface again.
but something still doesn't feel completely right.
a torn stitch, a door ajar.
you can catch it before it falls but you'll need
to remove the blind fold first.

the hardest part is keeping your eye on the ball.

the hardest part is not being afraid of what is coming at you.

the easiest part is ducking.

isaak is the best boyfriend ever.


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i'm digging my self into a hole
and now that i am realizing that i am doing it
i'm too god damn fucking deep to get out of it
some one toss me some rope
i've been doing it all my life
i think i need someone else besides me on the other end of it.

and don't say you told me so,
because so help me i will kick that fucking smirk off of your
peachy

today seemed short. shorter than usual. shannon and i went
to work, got something to eat, took some pictures, ect.
you know how it goes.


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If there is one thing i can do for you, personally,
what is it?

There is no statement to be made. there is nothing
i can say that hasn't already been said. i can
underline it , i can write it all out
IN CAPS, even emphasize certain words.
i can make s p a c e s in the sentence good for
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sleeping is the cure for:

- hunger
- cravings
- recklessness
- disease
- assholes
- salvation that never comes
- dependence
- inflation
- letdown
- tantrums
- deception
- becoming obsolete
- perversion
- mourning
- anxiety
- being penniless
- loneliness
- captivity
- disorder
- boredom
- pain
- guilt
- all responsibilities

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