Wow, it surely has been a while. Perhaps longer in my world because of the recent episodes drama. Basically, since I last updated, I finished semesters, did pretty well, except for AP English that was handed in waaay late, then started the chaos again after a brief respite. I shall start with the Lewistown meat on the 8th. Things seemed to be going ( Read more... )

However, (told u so) I received quite a shock the night of the 20th. I ended up getting a call from Amber, who was wigging out majorly and in tears, and she tells me that V is trying to commit suicide!!! So i call her right away, hoping to reach her mom but getting her instead, and try to get her calmed down right away while telling amber to call ( Read more... )

However, (be prepared for almost all of these to start like this) the chemical effects soon wore off and I better realized that for a long-distance relationship the influences of when we do meet, because they are so far and few between, should not effect my judgement of the relationship to a serious extent. Once again I felt little for her and ( Read more... )

However, on the next day it was agreed on that I would wait and see if I felt anything for her after some time of still being together. (a bad idea as I soon realized, in fact almost as soon as I got off the phone) This was fine and dandy and she did end up coming to GF for christmas shopping on the 11th, and there was suprisingly little tension on ( Read more... )

Well, now for a breakdown of my disgustipating last few weeks in which I have refrained from posting due to several reasons, including me being a slacker when it comes to this at times, and which will be in several sections. Anyhow, on thursday the 9th she found out that I was prolly going to college out of state (prolly in washington or boston U ( Read more... )

YaY! The last two days I have been far more clear-headed, which is definately a good thing. I found out that Nick Greene is living in Dutton with his parents now so I now have a person to walk around town with again, as well as a person to have sword duels with (if it is ever warm enough to do so :P). (Cisco is making no sense whatsoever and i have ( Read more... )

Ugh, too many thoughts about the past and future. I truly don't wish to end my relationship with Veronica just yet, because I don't want her to have a shitty Christmas: no one deserves that. However, it seems the more I try to break away the more she holds on, so the more it hurts to want to end it. It becomes very difficult when she says things ( Read more... )

Billings and Brainbusters sucked. We lost 80 to 70, mostly because I was an idiot and couldn't figure out simple shit. I froze. It was awful. Crap kept building up in my throat so when I tried to answer once I just about gagged. Everyone else did better than me, and yet for some reason I was the captain so the stupid lightening round sucked. I ( Read more... )

I seem to be experiencing a morbid streak again. My recent delerium has given way to illogical sadness. Last night I started thinking about the past again, and started writing bizarre little fragments of poetry that I didn't entirely remember writing... many were reminisces about bleeding... It doesn't help that I am beginning to feel utterly ( Read more... )

At the moment it is 6 past midnight and I have nearly an entire essay to write for tomorrow. Joy. Why I am on this site typing this instead of working on that is a mystery. Perhaps the horribly dull and unprovocative (although mostly so because we've went over it so much) subject matter has helped dull my senses. For the past week or so I have been ( Read more... )