i miss sanah.

i've got many things to talk about ( Read more... )

Sacks ( Read more... )

it is possible to look too hard ( Read more... )

He asked me to do something
Epic
And I just have this vision of us
Dancing in the misery
And playing the waves
Of some darkened ocean
At the edge of this aged world
And I don’t know if it’s
Epic
But I think its all we’ll know to do.

am i just looking for transformation ( Read more... )

today was ramadan 1, and over all, it went pretty well. i struggled through some hunger (duh), forced myself to think before i spoke--RIGHT before i spoke. i tried to control my anger, checked myself to make sure that my good deeds were not designed to impress others, or even myself ( Read more... )

i'm not sure i'm going to be able to do this well this year. i feel like there are so many things going on, so many things that prevent me from even noticing myself ( Read more... )

i guess right now i'm really into avoiding problems. and what's weird is that i have been avoiding dealing with my advoiding problem. ha.

living in a little haze until everything seems to pick up. i wish i wasn't doing it....but it happens. (sober butterfly?)

who knows.

and do you know,
i can actually hear all the voice
of those important people
tisk tisking
my self-pitying behavior.

but you know what else?
fuck them.
sometimes i'm gonna feel shitty.

i just hope i can pull myself out of it, when i need to.