The Night has a Thousand Eyes.

[devils_minion]

I didn't fit the mold of an alcoholic. I was young but I didn't party overmuch. I wasn't a loner. I shot my dreams high. Big plans. Big smile. I was a nice college boy with two nice parents. Maybe that's why I liked dive bars. They were a warm portal to a dirty world. I got some cheap thrills and a quick prod at the underbelly of a city before

Comments

[vasilissa_song]

For me, a lot of time alcohol is a medicine for the soul. I haven't got drunk too often, but when I did everything intensified. If I was sad I would embarrass my friend by weeping in the middle of the street as if someone I've known just died. If I was lonely I would flirt with random guys, if I was angry... Well, I never really got drunk when I was angry, I guess I was too scared to do that.

After these nights, I felt empty - but the weight I had on my shoulders was a bit lighter, as if I could carry it on for a few more weeks.

Do you miss being drunk?

[devils_minion]

Yeah, that sounds about right. Except that a few weeks of buoyancy soon begin to shrink, first to a week and a few days and finally a few scant hours. Then the weight starts to come back heavier.

God but I do miss it.

[vasilissa_song]

Isn't the feeling after drinking now better, though? I imagine it as a mix between the feeling of a baby being fed for the first time, taking LSD, and perhaps an orgasm.

[devils_minion]

I can't remember the first of those, but I can sure vouch for the last two.

It's different now. It's intense, euphoric and even more addictive. You get an instant hit that satisfies every craving you've ever had and for a while after you're floating in Shangri-La.

But when the pretty dreams scatter you're back where you started. Or worse. Spiritual hangover.

[devils_minion]

They did cast River Phoenix as me.

Yeah, Armand made me drink. Armand made me crazy. I got into that bottle and I never found my way out. I often think it would be great if I could still drink like that. It didn't help me then and it won't help me now but it sure satisfied something.

[devils_minion]

High and unusual stress. Yeah, that's Armand all over.

You know he's still doing it. Still stalking me and playing his mind games. He's come to San Fransisco just to torment me and now I see him everywhere.

I was with him for years. I was his cat's paw. I told Lestat and he put some of it in his book but it was endless. He would prod me to see what I would do and how much he could control me. He did control me. He's still doing it.

[xblack_wingedx]

I wonder, did you feel those same shining eyes last night?

[devils_minion]

I should have guessed you were back in the city. What do you want? Have you come to see your handiwork?

[xblack_wingedx]

What do I want? Is there any question of that left in your mind now?

[devils_minion]

Stop it. Why can't you say what you mean just this once!

[beautesauvage13]

There used to be this dive bar in New Orleans.  Flanagan ' s it was called.  You would have loved it.  I loved it.  It was perfectly dingy and very old..probably haunted too - but what place in New Orleans isn't haunted?  It closed last year or rather moved to a new venue in North Rampart.  I haven't been to the new place yet.  Flanagan ' s though it had character.  Best bloody Mary's I ever had in New Orleans.  Not bad fried catfish either actually.   I spent hours in that place..drinking and hanging out with friends.  Met a few interesting folk passing through.  Place had an almost Cheers like atmosphere.  Friendly staff.

I was sad to see it closed.  But such is life in a poor economy.

Athena

[devils_minion]

Being dingy and old is what makes a good bar. People's lives have been etched into the surfaces.

[beautesauvage13]

Indeed.  I do love such places even if all I can drink is diet pepsi now..Napoleon House is still there another old dingy restaurant..and Lafitte - love Lafittes  - That place is haunted by pirates.  Pat Obrien ' s. .Pirates Alley Cafe..God I miss New Orleans..and I've only been away from it a few months.  I'll be back of course.  I can't seem to stay away.

Athena

[devils_minion]

It's been a long time since I was in New Orleans. Years. I know Lafitte's and the Apple barrel Bar on Frenchmen and Bacchanal. I seem to have forgotten most of the places I hung out at, but that's probably for the best.

Were you born there?