What more can I do....

[devilsdue2099]

This is the first part of my question...the second part, recently, has been "to screw things up more??" For those just "tuning in", a sketch of the details can be found below in other entries. I have a problem with lying; more directly, lying to keep disappointment away from myself. Seems like the more I think about it and recollect data from my

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[lllvis]

Could it be that in this course of discovering, for the sake of correcting, a deep seated issue has caused another/others to perhaps surface? It would not be surprising. It also wouldn't be surprising that, at least for now, your attention is diverted to something rather 'new' and pressing, and other things are slipping in its wake?

The notepad is a good idea. There are all kinds of ideas out there on effectiveness and arranging tasks and ideas to help keep things straight as well as achieving a sense of accomplishment by holding yourself to a list of things that need to be done by certain times.

If I can do anything to help, you have but to ask.

[olliesmama]

I think it's a good thing that you realize it needs work....and the note book thing is a great idea. It also shows that you are willing to fix the situation instead of wallowing in it, which says progress to me.

*hugs*

[devilsdue2099]

Thanks all...the old saying "if you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got" comes to mind. I think we both have things that we are trying to retool in our lives, I just wish it was under better circumstances where we were supporting each other through. It's hard knowing how much you love someone, but not being able to express it. It's much harder to know and understand that YOU are the reason why this has come to pass. I'm trying, I promise...