i auditioned at coldstones. i am not optimistic ( Read more... )

i am very sleepy. i want to do a picnic in the park. with a nice fluffy towel or blanket on the ground so the grass doesnt get itchy. and pizza instead of a picnic because i mean no one wants to pack a lunch for everyone and sandwiches suck anyways. and then just totally chill out and relax in the nice warmth. id prolly fall asleep but it would ( Read more... )

So anyways life has not quite grinded to a stop. its more of at carousel speed, completely with the gently tinking music. a very slow carousel and i am riding an ivory house with a gold roached mane. everything is gilded. dreamlike ( Read more... )

i havent updated in a while because i really dont think anything i say makes much sense anymore. i really cant stand this feeling of sinking and suicidal thoughts. no one reads this anyways and thats a comfortt because i dont think most people understand. or even worse they feel that they do, or at least should. im feeling that is it becoming ( Read more... )

i really feel like im dying. i know thats silly and somehow false however theres a lot of truth in that statement as well. im just drowning in my own bodily fuilds and will slowly sink through the floor into nothingness. i miss ginger ( Read more... )

ive had this journal since 3/20/2003. sophmore year. over two years. time has flown. makes me think

While all you were out shakin yo thang at sadies ( i totally had to say that) i had a good weekend as well ( Read more... )

wow i am updating a lot into this lately ( Read more... )

I took Bob to the nursery today and got him some food. He looks really happy, i hope he lives ( Read more... )

i just read some guys journal and grew furious. just because you read "zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance" doesnt mean you have to talk about the cutting knife of things and introspection and such. youre not a philosopher so dont fucking try ( Read more... )